sadness is suppressed for now..
well, ive decided that the event is too raw for me to deal with right now, and if i try to then i will only be depressed. i learned last time that i can choose not to be depressed and i do... so i am moving on with my life, one day at a time and taking it slowly but im not going to deal with how i feel about richard right now. ive removed everything i can that reminds me of him and taken down his pictures from the hallway near my room and in my room... so thats that and im doing better. he called last night in the middle of my breakdown and i told him i wished not to speak with him and then if i changed my mind i would call him. otherwise, leave me alone. so i hope he got the point... and for now, ive got studies to work on and spirituality in my life that has me growing. these are more important to me right now that dealing with him and his alcoholic bullshit. god shoot me if i become involved with another alcoholic. anyways, ive got a doctors appointment in a few minutes and yoga after that... so ill be back later tonight.