Goodbye For Now
I'm so tired. Tired of this. Updating, posting...ect. Chris is never on anymore, either that or he's invisible to me. My conversations with Dan and Alex are strained...I NEVER talk to Myles and hardly ever Sarah. I don't want to LOSE these people. They are my friends. When something happens to me, or to them...we're there to talk to. But now..dunno. I use to just be scared I'd lose chris, of course he's not on anymore anyway..but now I'm afraid I'm going to lose all of them. And, online or not, these people are important to me. Not just that..I sit here and wait for people to get on to talk to. I think I'm going to dissappear for awhile. *sighs* Yes, I am. I'm not going to get online for awhile....right now it's just bringing me down more. I feel depressed all the time. My loneliness is killing me inside, and trying to drive it away by eating and getting online is not helping. And I need to do something about it before I'm permanently screwed up....anyway, so yeah. I'm not getting on tomorrow...I dont' know about any other days, but I'm not getting on tomorrow, unless I break down of course, but I won't. I don't know how long..won't be more than a week..or two. dunno. Ya know you guys can always call me...if you know me you know that I'm happy when I get calls, no matter what time. 901-650-9714...it's MY phone now. Mom's gone, I will always have it on me. I'll see you around.