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ok, i know, I know, my new rule in that post right below this one..but just now I tried to sleep and I couldn't say I laid there and I cried and...prayed..not to god, necassarily. Just to..something. Or nothing. Whatever. Anyway..if here's what I said:
God....lizzie and jimmy..please help them, please, they can't end up like mama or dad..they just can't, if dad dies then we're screwed, we're all just screwed to hell, mama wants to get better..but she can't, help her find peace with herself...and chris..he'll have those surgeries if I have to fucking do it myself, let him find someone who makes him real real real happy, even though..it's probably not gonna be me..and I want craig to be happy, cuz I know he's not...I gotta git out of here, get me above the mason-dixon line and I"ll be happy..and...give me someone who loves me with all their heart and vice versa..someone to love and hold and be loved, if i'm alone all my life..I coudln't stand that.....that's all I can remember
God....lizzie and jimmy..please help them, please, they can't end up like mama or dad..they just can't, if dad dies then we're screwed, we're all just screwed to hell, mama wants to get better..but she can't, help her find peace with herself...and chris..he'll have those surgeries if I have to fucking do it myself, let him find someone who makes him real real real happy, even though..it's probably not gonna be me..and I want craig to be happy, cuz I know he's not...I gotta git out of here, get me above the mason-dixon line and I"ll be happy..and...give me someone who loves me with all their heart and vice versa..someone to love and hold and be loved, if i'm alone all my life..I coudln't stand that.....that's all I can remember