My first ficlet....Now or Never
So guys, here it is, I'm officially no longer a writing virgin. This is the finished result of some drunken notes I made after we did some celebrating on the night of my birthday.
I need to thank some of my awesome flisters.
titheniel, if it wasn't for you honey this would never have seen the light of day. Thank you for encouraging me when I didn't think this would amount to anything & for getting me interested in the whole writing addiction
woodsbaile_02, you have been the best hand holder anyone could have! Always willing to answer my little questions and pick up things I wouldn't have noticed.
slashboyz, my unofficial beta! You gave me more than I ever expected hon and I still didn't want to smack you :) Thank you so much for the time you put into going over it and making suggestions, you know it's appreciated
Title: Now or Never
Pairing: Jared/Jensen, implied Jared/Jensen/Chris
Summary: It's Jared's birthday, he plans on a few quiet drinks with his boyfriend and their friend, but Jensen plans on staking a claim.
Now or Never
Jensen pushed Jared back on to the bed, and turned his eyes to Chris as he followed them into the bedroom wearing a puzzled expression.
“What are you doing Jenny?” Chris asked as he glanced at the temptation lying in front of him. Jared moved to make himself more comfortable and rested his upper body on his elbows.
Chris’ lidded blue eyes trailed the length of Jared’s body, his gaze like a physical caress. He tried to look away before Jensen caught the lust in his eyes, but it was too late.
God, what will he do if he’s worked it out, Chris panicked. He knows how observant Jensen can be, especially when it came to Jared. He prayed that Jensen had not guessed how he felt for Jared.
Yeah that’s right, Jensen’s Jared.
“You want him.” Jensen said. “This is your chance. Take it now or never look at him like that again.”
Jared’s mouth dropped open in shock. “Jen, what the hell?” he broke off when he realized Jensen was focused on Chris. What was Jensen thinking, and how the hell was he expected to react to that statement? His mind wandered back to an introduction, long before things had turned serious with Jensen, before he even knew his co-star was interested.
“Jay, I want you to meet my friend Chris.” Jensen had seemed keen for his two friends to meet, but what he didn’t know was that Jared had watched and admired Chris on the small screen, just like he had with Jensen in his previous roles. In real life, Jared had noticed the cocky smile, listened to the sexy voice, and been drawn to Chris, to the edge of danger and raw sexuality the man held.
As his feelings for Jensen had changed and matured, the lust and awareness of Chris was still there. But that was pushed away the night that Jensen left Danneel. Losing her was the precursor of Jensen admitting the true nature of his feelings. After Jared got past the shock that Jensen returned his feelings, he had immediately known where his heart lay. It was with Jensen and always would be. He’d be a liar if he denied he still found Chris attractive but he knew Jensen held his heart within his own and that their connection went beyond sex.
Sometimes he thought is was a mix of attraction, jealousy, and their comfortable friendship, which left Jared avoiding Jen’s place when he knew Chris was visiting. Chris had stopped using his key after he arrived once to find Jared and Jensen snuggled together on the couch, asleep and clearly naked under a thin blanket, the room smelling of sex and beer.
After that, it was Jensen who noticed the disappointment Chris had tried to hide whenever the house was empty of Jared’s loud laugh or dimpled smile.
“Where’s Jay?” was the casual comment that always followed the subtle sweep of Chris’ eyes. At the start Jensen would make a joke of it, they would laugh and that would be it, but lately the joke felt more forced.
Jensen watched Jared’s eyes darken as they moved between the two men watching him and he prayed this wasn’t going to backfire. No going back now. Not when he had to know once and for all if Jared’s loyalty would stay with him.
“Always be mine?” Jensen had asked as he slowly pushed into Jared who had been quick to nod, but Jensen needed to hear the words, to be able to feel them as Jared’s lips moved against his own. He paused mid thrust and pressed a finger under Jared’s chin to force eye contact.
“Yours, only ever yours,” Jared panted as he rolled his hips up to meet Jensen’s downward thrust.
Jensen remembered the day he realized the subtle attraction between Chris and Jared was mutual, and shuddered. He always thought his two friends would get along fine, he just never expected them to be interested in more. It was about time Jensen was honest and admitted their attraction had led to him confessing how he felt about Jared. Jensen couldn’t chance that Chris would make a play for Jared before he did.
If Jared accepted the offer and allowed it to happen under Jensen’s watchful eye, he hoped it would be enough for Jared. Then maybe it would be out of his lover’s system, and Jensen could rest assured. He held on to that thought even while he tried desperately to deny how the thought of Jared fucking Chris was making him hard.
Jensen felt like the situation has been working its way towards an explosion for a while now and had just enough alcohol flooding his system to force the issue. Tonight was Jared’s birthday and he was no longer going to sit in a bar and watch his best mate try to avoid bumping Jared’s leg when they were squashed into a booth, try to avoid looking at Jared for too long, try to avoid stepping in when some jealous boyfriends got pissed off at the attention their girlfriends were paying the stars of Supernatural.
Jensen followed Chris’ eyes as he watched a group of guys track Jared’s movement between the jukebox and the bar, then he turned his focus to Jared. “What’s your problem man?”
Chris’ head snapped toward Jensen and he felt his cheeks heat when he knew he had been caught watching Jared.
“Those guys, they’ve been watching Jared all night, shouldn’t we make a move, or get out of here? I don’t want Jared to get caught up in any trouble”
“Chris, its fine, leave it,” Jensen snapped.
“But, what if…” Chris stopped speaking when Jensen abruptly stood.
“He’s my boyfriend Chris, do you think I’d let any harm come to him?”
Some pleasures were meant for only Jensen.
It was his pleasure being forced against Jared’s leg, it was his right to stare at Jared all night, and he had the fucking right to come to Jared’s and his own defense. He didn’t need Chris to do it and he certainly didn’t want Chris to be doing it. God damn it, Jared was his and his only. It was about time that he let Chris know it.
Jensen had stalked over to stand beside Jared and waited while he ordered a round of shots, then he lead Jared to the bathroom. The stall door had only just closed behind them before Jared was shoved against it. Jensen leant in close behind him, and pressed a line of kitten licks and kisses along the back of Jared’s neck, just above his collar. As he reached around to palm Jared’s growing erection he bit down into the skin covering his collar bone and whispered one single word across Jared’s ear.
“Mine.”
Jared had whined when he was suddenly released, and Jensen had looked over his shoulder and mouthed one more word as he walked away.
“Later.”
Jared had returned to the table with a flushed face, his jacket had been removed and was held in front of his body. He sat down and flicked his eyes to Jensen just in time to see the flare of possession pass through those expressive eyes. Jared glanced sideways at Chris sitting quietly next to him and saw his eyes falter and lock on the raised bite mark on Jared’s skin.
Jensen hid a satisfied smile as he called the waitress over for another round of shots.
Chris dropped his eyes for a moment, then raised his glass in a toast and met Jensen’s eyes across the table. “To friends.”
“And lovers.” Jensen had responded immediately as his gaze switched between his two companions.
From the time they left the bar and hailed a cab Chris had known something was up with Jensen, he seemed edgy and had not let Jared out of touching distance.
This added fuel to the feelings of guilt that Chris already carried; he had always known his forbidden attraction to Jared would never happen. Chris remembered when he had first asked Jensen “So, your boy Jay, is he seeing anyone?”
He had spent the night watching Jared from the stage as he downed beers, and the alcohol had given him enough nerve to mention Jared while he finished packing up equipment with Steve and Jensen.
“Not in a long time Chris, what makes you ask that?” Jensen had been quick to respond.
He had tried to keep it casual but he knew that Jensen and Steve had both seen straight through him. Jensen’s apparent possessiveness of Jared had him doubting Jen would ever let him get close enough to his co-star to make a move. That had been the end of the conversation.
Months later, Jensen had taken Chris and Steve by surprise one night over a few beers and a campfire. They had been sitting quietly while Steve strummed his guitar when Jensen suddenly raised his head and cleared his throat.
“I’m leaving Danneel,” Jensen had muttered into the darkness.
Chris had looked at Jensen in shock, but before he could respond he heard the one name from Jensen’s lips that he never expected.
“Jared. I gotta know if I could make him happy.”
Chris knew they were close but he thought the flirting, the casual touches were just a result of the easy familiarity the boys had adopted with each other.
Jesus, Chris hadn’t even known Jensen was bi. After Jensen had crashed out in his tent, he promised Steve he would move on and never let his feelings for Jared affect his long time friendship with Jensen. Apparently he hadn’t covered it as well as he thought.
Chris’ thoughts snapped back to the present and noticed that Jensen was standing by the bed with one hand resting comfortably on Jared’s shoulder. He saw it for what it was, a clear stamp of possession. Jared looked as unsure on how to react as Chris felt.
Jensen quietly repeated his earlier statement. “You want him, I know you do Christian, this is your chance.”
Jensen slowly lifted his hand, but he kept eye contact with Chris as he moved to trail one fingertip along Jared’s bare arm, his own skin heating as he sensed Jared’s reaction to his proximity. “I’ve seen you watch him, try to hide how he turns you on, but you can’t, can you?”
“But he’s your boyfriend Jen.” Chris stuttered. Who would have thought Jensen could reduce him to this?
“Yes he is, and he still will be in the morning, I can promise you that.” Jensen turned back to Jared and his voice dropped into a smoky drawl. “Jay, does he turn you on? Make you hard?”
Jared could only nod, and he hoped Jensen understood. How long had Jensen planned this, was it Chris that he had in mind when he had shyly asked Jared if he would consider a threesome? They had been lying in bed; sweat slick, Jensen’s body still between his splayed legs as he nibbled on his shoulder, while Jared rubbed lazy circles over Jensen’s back.
“Would you Jared?” Jensen had asked after he broached the subject.
“Maybe, you would have to be sure about it, and I could never be with anyone else unless you were right there with me” Jared had felt slightly guilty getting aroused by the thought of knowing what it would be like to push into a lover’s warm and willing body. He loved to be taken by Jensen, and he understood why Jensen had not wanted anyone else inside him, the way only Jensen had been.
Jensen silently thanked his lucky stars he had discussed this with Jared already, he figured this was the chance he needed to make it clear to Chris who Jared really belonged to. Jared might lust after Chris, but Jensen needed Chris to know that he would never allow anyone to come between him and Jared.
Jared held eye contact with Jensen and raised an eyebrow, cocked his head at Chris, and let a slow smile spread over his face as he watched Jensen and noticed the signs of his lover’s arousal.
They both turned to Chris; it was time to lay some ground rules.
Jared moved to kneel on the bed and reached out a hand towards Chris. He waited until Chris moved across the room and delighted in the intense stare he found himself caught in. Chris placed his hand in Jared’s and walked his fingers across the delicate skin on the inside of his wrist, smiled when they both shivered. Jared leaned slightly forward so Chris was standing directly in front of him. From this close he could feel the brush of fabric against his own shirt as they both breathed and he watched Jensen step up close behind his friend.
“Can you feel it Chris?” Jensen leant forward into Chris’ space, close, but not close enough to touch, and passed Jared a condom and a small tube of lube.
“Feel what it’s like when he makes you the center of his world,” Jensen whispered in his ear as he moved back. Chris adjusted the fly of his jeans and tried to loosen the denim as it really sunk in that he could have what he really wanted, just this once. He felt Jensen’s left hand settle on his hip and slide under the cotton of his shirt as his other hand reached around him to land on Jared’s hip.
Chris just hoped he was strong enough to walk away afterwards.
Learning the Steps
I need to thank some of my awesome flisters.
titheniel, if it wasn't for you honey this would never have seen the light of day. Thank you for encouraging me when I didn't think this would amount to anything & for getting me interested in the whole writing addiction
woodsbaile_02, you have been the best hand holder anyone could have! Always willing to answer my little questions and pick up things I wouldn't have noticed.
slashboyz, my unofficial beta! You gave me more than I ever expected hon and I still didn't want to smack you :) Thank you so much for the time you put into going over it and making suggestions, you know it's appreciated
Title: Now or Never
Pairing: Jared/Jensen, implied Jared/Jensen/Chris
Summary: It's Jared's birthday, he plans on a few quiet drinks with his boyfriend and their friend, but Jensen plans on staking a claim.
Now or Never
Jensen pushed Jared back on to the bed, and turned his eyes to Chris as he followed them into the bedroom wearing a puzzled expression.
“What are you doing Jenny?” Chris asked as he glanced at the temptation lying in front of him. Jared moved to make himself more comfortable and rested his upper body on his elbows.
Chris’ lidded blue eyes trailed the length of Jared’s body, his gaze like a physical caress. He tried to look away before Jensen caught the lust in his eyes, but it was too late.
God, what will he do if he’s worked it out, Chris panicked. He knows how observant Jensen can be, especially when it came to Jared. He prayed that Jensen had not guessed how he felt for Jared.
Yeah that’s right, Jensen’s Jared.
“You want him.” Jensen said. “This is your chance. Take it now or never look at him like that again.”
Jared’s mouth dropped open in shock. “Jen, what the hell?” he broke off when he realized Jensen was focused on Chris. What was Jensen thinking, and how the hell was he expected to react to that statement? His mind wandered back to an introduction, long before things had turned serious with Jensen, before he even knew his co-star was interested.
“Jay, I want you to meet my friend Chris.” Jensen had seemed keen for his two friends to meet, but what he didn’t know was that Jared had watched and admired Chris on the small screen, just like he had with Jensen in his previous roles. In real life, Jared had noticed the cocky smile, listened to the sexy voice, and been drawn to Chris, to the edge of danger and raw sexuality the man held.
As his feelings for Jensen had changed and matured, the lust and awareness of Chris was still there. But that was pushed away the night that Jensen left Danneel. Losing her was the precursor of Jensen admitting the true nature of his feelings. After Jared got past the shock that Jensen returned his feelings, he had immediately known where his heart lay. It was with Jensen and always would be. He’d be a liar if he denied he still found Chris attractive but he knew Jensen held his heart within his own and that their connection went beyond sex.
Sometimes he thought is was a mix of attraction, jealousy, and their comfortable friendship, which left Jared avoiding Jen’s place when he knew Chris was visiting. Chris had stopped using his key after he arrived once to find Jared and Jensen snuggled together on the couch, asleep and clearly naked under a thin blanket, the room smelling of sex and beer.
After that, it was Jensen who noticed the disappointment Chris had tried to hide whenever the house was empty of Jared’s loud laugh or dimpled smile.
“Where’s Jay?” was the casual comment that always followed the subtle sweep of Chris’ eyes. At the start Jensen would make a joke of it, they would laugh and that would be it, but lately the joke felt more forced.
Jensen watched Jared’s eyes darken as they moved between the two men watching him and he prayed this wasn’t going to backfire. No going back now. Not when he had to know once and for all if Jared’s loyalty would stay with him.
“Always be mine?” Jensen had asked as he slowly pushed into Jared who had been quick to nod, but Jensen needed to hear the words, to be able to feel them as Jared’s lips moved against his own. He paused mid thrust and pressed a finger under Jared’s chin to force eye contact.
“Yours, only ever yours,” Jared panted as he rolled his hips up to meet Jensen’s downward thrust.
Jensen remembered the day he realized the subtle attraction between Chris and Jared was mutual, and shuddered. He always thought his two friends would get along fine, he just never expected them to be interested in more. It was about time Jensen was honest and admitted their attraction had led to him confessing how he felt about Jared. Jensen couldn’t chance that Chris would make a play for Jared before he did.
If Jared accepted the offer and allowed it to happen under Jensen’s watchful eye, he hoped it would be enough for Jared. Then maybe it would be out of his lover’s system, and Jensen could rest assured. He held on to that thought even while he tried desperately to deny how the thought of Jared fucking Chris was making him hard.
Jensen felt like the situation has been working its way towards an explosion for a while now and had just enough alcohol flooding his system to force the issue. Tonight was Jared’s birthday and he was no longer going to sit in a bar and watch his best mate try to avoid bumping Jared’s leg when they were squashed into a booth, try to avoid looking at Jared for too long, try to avoid stepping in when some jealous boyfriends got pissed off at the attention their girlfriends were paying the stars of Supernatural.
Jensen followed Chris’ eyes as he watched a group of guys track Jared’s movement between the jukebox and the bar, then he turned his focus to Jared. “What’s your problem man?”
Chris’ head snapped toward Jensen and he felt his cheeks heat when he knew he had been caught watching Jared.
“Those guys, they’ve been watching Jared all night, shouldn’t we make a move, or get out of here? I don’t want Jared to get caught up in any trouble”
“Chris, its fine, leave it,” Jensen snapped.
“But, what if…” Chris stopped speaking when Jensen abruptly stood.
“He’s my boyfriend Chris, do you think I’d let any harm come to him?”
Some pleasures were meant for only Jensen.
It was his pleasure being forced against Jared’s leg, it was his right to stare at Jared all night, and he had the fucking right to come to Jared’s and his own defense. He didn’t need Chris to do it and he certainly didn’t want Chris to be doing it. God damn it, Jared was his and his only. It was about time that he let Chris know it.
Jensen had stalked over to stand beside Jared and waited while he ordered a round of shots, then he lead Jared to the bathroom. The stall door had only just closed behind them before Jared was shoved against it. Jensen leant in close behind him, and pressed a line of kitten licks and kisses along the back of Jared’s neck, just above his collar. As he reached around to palm Jared’s growing erection he bit down into the skin covering his collar bone and whispered one single word across Jared’s ear.
“Mine.”
Jared had whined when he was suddenly released, and Jensen had looked over his shoulder and mouthed one more word as he walked away.
“Later.”
Jared had returned to the table with a flushed face, his jacket had been removed and was held in front of his body. He sat down and flicked his eyes to Jensen just in time to see the flare of possession pass through those expressive eyes. Jared glanced sideways at Chris sitting quietly next to him and saw his eyes falter and lock on the raised bite mark on Jared’s skin.
Jensen hid a satisfied smile as he called the waitress over for another round of shots.
Chris dropped his eyes for a moment, then raised his glass in a toast and met Jensen’s eyes across the table. “To friends.”
“And lovers.” Jensen had responded immediately as his gaze switched between his two companions.
From the time they left the bar and hailed a cab Chris had known something was up with Jensen, he seemed edgy and had not let Jared out of touching distance.
This added fuel to the feelings of guilt that Chris already carried; he had always known his forbidden attraction to Jared would never happen. Chris remembered when he had first asked Jensen “So, your boy Jay, is he seeing anyone?”
He had spent the night watching Jared from the stage as he downed beers, and the alcohol had given him enough nerve to mention Jared while he finished packing up equipment with Steve and Jensen.
“Not in a long time Chris, what makes you ask that?” Jensen had been quick to respond.
He had tried to keep it casual but he knew that Jensen and Steve had both seen straight through him. Jensen’s apparent possessiveness of Jared had him doubting Jen would ever let him get close enough to his co-star to make a move. That had been the end of the conversation.
Months later, Jensen had taken Chris and Steve by surprise one night over a few beers and a campfire. They had been sitting quietly while Steve strummed his guitar when Jensen suddenly raised his head and cleared his throat.
“I’m leaving Danneel,” Jensen had muttered into the darkness.
Chris had looked at Jensen in shock, but before he could respond he heard the one name from Jensen’s lips that he never expected.
“Jared. I gotta know if I could make him happy.”
Chris knew they were close but he thought the flirting, the casual touches were just a result of the easy familiarity the boys had adopted with each other.
Jesus, Chris hadn’t even known Jensen was bi. After Jensen had crashed out in his tent, he promised Steve he would move on and never let his feelings for Jared affect his long time friendship with Jensen. Apparently he hadn’t covered it as well as he thought.
Chris’ thoughts snapped back to the present and noticed that Jensen was standing by the bed with one hand resting comfortably on Jared’s shoulder. He saw it for what it was, a clear stamp of possession. Jared looked as unsure on how to react as Chris felt.
Jensen quietly repeated his earlier statement. “You want him, I know you do Christian, this is your chance.”
Jensen slowly lifted his hand, but he kept eye contact with Chris as he moved to trail one fingertip along Jared’s bare arm, his own skin heating as he sensed Jared’s reaction to his proximity. “I’ve seen you watch him, try to hide how he turns you on, but you can’t, can you?”
“But he’s your boyfriend Jen.” Chris stuttered. Who would have thought Jensen could reduce him to this?
“Yes he is, and he still will be in the morning, I can promise you that.” Jensen turned back to Jared and his voice dropped into a smoky drawl. “Jay, does he turn you on? Make you hard?”
Jared could only nod, and he hoped Jensen understood. How long had Jensen planned this, was it Chris that he had in mind when he had shyly asked Jared if he would consider a threesome? They had been lying in bed; sweat slick, Jensen’s body still between his splayed legs as he nibbled on his shoulder, while Jared rubbed lazy circles over Jensen’s back.
“Would you Jared?” Jensen had asked after he broached the subject.
“Maybe, you would have to be sure about it, and I could never be with anyone else unless you were right there with me” Jared had felt slightly guilty getting aroused by the thought of knowing what it would be like to push into a lover’s warm and willing body. He loved to be taken by Jensen, and he understood why Jensen had not wanted anyone else inside him, the way only Jensen had been.
Jensen silently thanked his lucky stars he had discussed this with Jared already, he figured this was the chance he needed to make it clear to Chris who Jared really belonged to. Jared might lust after Chris, but Jensen needed Chris to know that he would never allow anyone to come between him and Jared.
Jared held eye contact with Jensen and raised an eyebrow, cocked his head at Chris, and let a slow smile spread over his face as he watched Jensen and noticed the signs of his lover’s arousal.
They both turned to Chris; it was time to lay some ground rules.
Jared moved to kneel on the bed and reached out a hand towards Chris. He waited until Chris moved across the room and delighted in the intense stare he found himself caught in. Chris placed his hand in Jared’s and walked his fingers across the delicate skin on the inside of his wrist, smiled when they both shivered. Jared leaned slightly forward so Chris was standing directly in front of him. From this close he could feel the brush of fabric against his own shirt as they both breathed and he watched Jensen step up close behind his friend.
“Can you feel it Chris?” Jensen leant forward into Chris’ space, close, but not close enough to touch, and passed Jared a condom and a small tube of lube.
“Feel what it’s like when he makes you the center of his world,” Jensen whispered in his ear as he moved back. Chris adjusted the fly of his jeans and tried to loosen the denim as it really sunk in that he could have what he really wanted, just this once. He felt Jensen’s left hand settle on his hip and slide under the cotton of his shirt as his other hand reached around him to land on Jared’s hip.
Chris just hoped he was strong enough to walk away afterwards.
Learning the Steps