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Well I'm at home again and I'm sat in my house alone crying. Its the same everytime I say goodbye to him but this time its different.
I spent the morning with my bestfriend, a guy I love more than anyone in the world and I just had to say goodbye to him, god knows how long for.
But its different this time, being with him today made me sad, sad in a way I didn't expect.
I love him very much and 2 years ago I made the decision to let him go because I wanted him to be happy and I knew that the only way he could be happy was if I let him go.
Now..He is happy and I'm happy for him, I really am yet it tears me apart and I don't know what to do about it.
I was always sad to say goodbye to him before but I always knew he'd be there waiting for me when I came back but now he's not. He'll always be there for me, I'm sure of that, if I need him, if I truely need him he will be there for me, but he's not mine anymore, not that he ever was but he's got someone else now, he doesn't need me and it kills me to say this. I did what was best for him and he's happy now and that means the world to me all I want is for him to be happy but I love him so much and I think I made the biggest mistake for me, I did what was best for him but I see now that its not what was best for me. I wouldn't change anything but I wish he still needed me like I need him.
I love him, I've always loved him but now its too late to tell him.
All I can do now is say Goodbye.
I spent the morning with my bestfriend, a guy I love more than anyone in the world and I just had to say goodbye to him, god knows how long for.
But its different this time, being with him today made me sad, sad in a way I didn't expect.
I love him very much and 2 years ago I made the decision to let him go because I wanted him to be happy and I knew that the only way he could be happy was if I let him go.
Now..He is happy and I'm happy for him, I really am yet it tears me apart and I don't know what to do about it.
I was always sad to say goodbye to him before but I always knew he'd be there waiting for me when I came back but now he's not. He'll always be there for me, I'm sure of that, if I need him, if I truely need him he will be there for me, but he's not mine anymore, not that he ever was but he's got someone else now, he doesn't need me and it kills me to say this. I did what was best for him and he's happy now and that means the world to me all I want is for him to be happy but I love him so much and I think I made the biggest mistake for me, I did what was best for him but I see now that its not what was best for me. I wouldn't change anything but I wish he still needed me like I need him.
I love him, I've always loved him but now its too late to tell him.
All I can do now is say Goodbye.