Shit.....

[debadora]

Well I'll get the good stuff out of the way first as theres really not much of it, My Dad came back from Iraq last night so thats one less thing to worry about.
However, I apologise in advance because here comes the rant.......

I hate uni...
I hate having to work my ass off on a course I'm not even sure I like so that I can eventually do what I want to do, which is only vaguely related anyway.
I hate the fact that I'm stupid enough to get myself in a position yet again where I could very likely fail.
I hate work...
mainly I hate the fact that despite the fact I enjoy my job shitty things are making me want to quit.
I hate managers that won't take responsiblity for their fuck ups and lay all the blame on me, I hate that I feel I'm never away from the place.
I hate that when I need the shifts I never get them and when I really could do without them I can't get out of them.
I hate having to make a pathetic attempt to fix something stupid I did ages ago.
I hate the fact I was stupid enough to do it again.
I hate hiding things from people, especially my parents.
I hate drifting away from the people I love.
I hate songs with sentimental value, they only make me cry.
I hate that I can't always keep the tears to my self.
I hate the fact I let my self be vunerable and I hate that I think he can see my vunerability.
I hate the distance between us even though in reality its not that far.
Right now I hate everything, particularly myself and my own self pity
and I hate the fact I have nothing to do but sit here and bore the rest of you with it.
I'm sorry.
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