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[debadora]

I have just woken up, I have to be at work for 5 and I'm still as pissed as a fart!! I don't care though because I spoke to him. It was so amazing just to hear his voice, I can't believe how great it was just to hear his voice! It felt like all the problems I've had recently just fell away the second he said hello. I felt relaxed, like properly relaxed for the first time in fucking ages. I knew I loved him and I knew I loved him a lot but I didn't realise how much I need him in my life. I wanted to tell him everything thats been going on with me, I wanted to tell him all about my weird emotional panic attack things, about my Dad being in iraq, about me being stupid again, about everything thats been fucking me up and all the things that he once would have been the first person to know and probably the only person who could help me with, but I couldn't, we're not in the same place as we used to be and although I think he would still be there for me if he knew I can't ask that of him, not yet, but today was a start, I thought I'd lost him completly, I thought he was out of my life, but he's not, today he came back even if only a little as far as I see it can only get better from here. Everythings not as bad as I thought it was, I'll get him back, its just a matter of time.

Thankyou Scott, you're amazing, you gave him back to me, I don't know how you did it but you did, love you X X x x x x x x x x x (Dawn, Your boyfriend is fantastic!!!!! :D welldone Hun, you found a good one, hehe ;))