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[deathxisxeasy]

This journal is friends only because I hate people. I will not add anyone if you are in the drama going on in my life. This is not so I can talk about people behind their backs, but so I can express how I feel without people taking it personally or looking too far into what I say.

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[red_bracelet]

Add me?

[deathxisxeasy]

Sure thing

nobody knows

[razorsharp676]

no one in my day to day family/school life even knows i am in these pro ana communities. but only the pro anas out there know how i truly feel, who i truly am. lately ana has grown stronger and stronger in me everyday. and its working. i can feel it, see it...
how long have u been? what r ur routines? how do u hide it?
this may sound odd but u seem like such an interesting person. ur journal inspired me to post. u r free to check out my jounral anytime.
this may sound eally odd but, everyday i feel myself growing darker...does that make sense 2 u?

quote: my dreams my life my body my choice...and if u think it's unhealthy, u can go fuck yourself!!

hugs, kate

Re: nobody knows

[deathxisxeasy]

Yes, I know how it is to grow darker everyday, I've been growning darker everyday for years. My ED story is a strange one, it started when I was raped nad became pregnant and I kept telling myself I was just getting fat and I restricted a lot, but that ended abruptly when I finally came to terms with the fact that I was pregnant. Then my ED showed it's face again at the beginning of last summer and I jump between ana and mia every few months. It all depends on my stress levels, but EDs tend to feed and sometimes relieve stress. And as for hiding it, my parents have always been blind to things, although my "friends," whether they're true or fake friends, all know. Infatc I'm sure the whole school does since I go to a small school and thepeople like to gossip.

Re: nobody knows

[razorsharp676]

damn, just damn man that all sucks. my school knew, my high school. in college i just don't give a shit. i don't socialize much either. what's the fucking point?
did u have the baby? u don't have to answer if if u don't want to.
my ed is all about, well me. control...and i hate food. it grosses me out. i hate the way it looks, the way it smells (except for sugarfree gum and certain raw veggies). for me, its about emptiness and control. strength and purity.
i am such a wretched and vile creature really, the only thing i have control of in keeping myself pure is my stomach, twisted huh? and if u saw me, u would not know. i look so "normal"

stay strong, and keep in touch. i will be here 4 u

hugs, kate

Re: nobody knows

[deathxisxeasy]

Yes, I gave her up for adoption. It's ok, I look "normal," also. It sucks..So I know hwo that goes..

Thank you

<3 Ali

[turpentine_love]

i saw you in anagurls. we have some of the same music interests. i added you.

[deathxisxeasy]

Ooook, I'll add you back, doll.

[corporate27whre]

I'd love to see into your life, could I be added?

[deathxisxeasy]

yes

[cutsbruisesarms]

Hey. I too am fed up with what i write in my own journal causing drama. Could i be added?

[deathxisxeasy]

If you make another journal that no one else knows about.

[cutsbruisesarms]

Yeah, this one is it. I dont use xfleshxbloodx anymore AT all and I didnt put this in it as a new sn. Im keeping this thing locked up tight.

[deathxisxeasy]

Oh, ok, I didn't realize that, sorry lol