oh well......
I guess in all lives there comes a time when you learn your place in life. Mine is to be alone. People tell me that i'm great, and that they need a guy like me in their life. In the end though, i'm never good enough. Either I have qualities, or interests that are unacceptable, or i'm just not good enough. I found a girl that was exactly what I wanted from life, there was only one problem. I was never good enough for her. That finally sunk in last night. I'm not good enough for her, as i will never be good enough for anybody. With this in mind, I begin my decent into darkness. I will still be here in body, but my spirit is gone. If people want me around, i will be there, but I doubt I will seek anyone out. I have ruined enough lives by trying to make myself and others happy, and I wont do it again.
As a final goodbye to my "fans", Joe, I know you have read at least some of this, how much, I don't know. You wont have to worry about my interference any longer. I may still talk to Shelly, but she is all yours. She always has been. Do her a favor and treat her well, she deserves it. Shelly, i'm sorry i ruined your life. I cant make anyone believe it wasn't intentional, but hey, i can try. I will still be here if you need help, or a shoulder to cry on, but I will not try to continue a doomed relationship with you. I still love you, and always will, but sometimes that isn't enough. Good luck with putting things back the way they were. Katie, I don't know if you were talking to me for me, or if it was because of Shelly, but I did enjoy talking to you. Thank you for believing what I said, and trying to help out. As you know, I never expected to get paid back for the ice cream, it was just a fun running joke. I hope one day you will find your decent man.
That takes care of all the people I know that read this. I may post from time to time, and anyone who wants to has a way to get in touch with me. Its been an interesting ride, I just wish it had turned out better. But hey, why would anything work out for poor ol' Charlie Brown.
As a final goodbye to my "fans", Joe, I know you have read at least some of this, how much, I don't know. You wont have to worry about my interference any longer. I may still talk to Shelly, but she is all yours. She always has been. Do her a favor and treat her well, she deserves it. Shelly, i'm sorry i ruined your life. I cant make anyone believe it wasn't intentional, but hey, i can try. I will still be here if you need help, or a shoulder to cry on, but I will not try to continue a doomed relationship with you. I still love you, and always will, but sometimes that isn't enough. Good luck with putting things back the way they were. Katie, I don't know if you were talking to me for me, or if it was because of Shelly, but I did enjoy talking to you. Thank you for believing what I said, and trying to help out. As you know, I never expected to get paid back for the ice cream, it was just a fun running joke. I hope one day you will find your decent man.
That takes care of all the people I know that read this. I may post from time to time, and anyone who wants to has a way to get in touch with me. Its been an interesting ride, I just wish it had turned out better. But hey, why would anything work out for poor ol' Charlie Brown.