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ive been writing alot, it happens when i feel like this. my family is afraid that i may attempt to commit suicide, because all i do anymore, when im home, is become recluesive, sit in my room and play guitar with the door shut and locked, not even loud enough for them to know im home. its just another barrier, and another device to try to drown everything. on top of this, i have this growing fear of being in public, and i have no idea why. and it scares me that everything has broken down this much in such a short time. nothing is the same as it was, and yet, its just how i started out. ive come full circle.