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[deathtime]

its a hard balance to find. as much as i wish i hadnt fucked things up with her, and as much as i wish things could go back to the way they were, i know thats not going to happen. on the same hand, we're still close. we talk in some form every single day. and i wouldnt change that for anything in the world. i cherish her as a part of my life. but it makes it hard to get over things.
if i cant be with her, i wish i could just get over her and stop thinking about it all the time. its been two months, for fucks sake.
fix my brain.