School is right around the corner...Lots of rambling...
I'm really not that excited for school to start back up, even though it will be nice to see people again. I have just been enjoying the time off A LOT and not looking forward to even less sleep than I am getting now. Monday is my first day, uuugghh *flails*
I've been feeling a little...tired, over inspired, unproductive and home sick...? Maybe home sick is not the right way to put it. I wanna go curl up in a comfy place with familiar people, in a hidden place with the last golden light of the day filtering through a window, or trees. Yeah trees would be nice..and as the last of the golden light fades from the sky and my favorite time of day, the time I've lovely dubbed years ago as "my blue time"( the time of day where the shadows blend so well with everything you can't tell when things actually turned to night time. Light a joint and relax. I have been working so hard to produce as much art or crafty projects this summer, that I haven't been able to spend as much quality time working on most. I have read some interesting journals of people I "knew" from years ago...but I never really knew them, just the idea I had built in my mind. I want to be able to create and express myself like they have and do. But I feel oppressed..held down..forced to conform out of repect? I hate living where I am, I want to be able to afford a place of our own..just my husband, son and myself. Where I can feel like a real adult again. I don't know why I'm crying..just need the release...the freedom to do what I want. Half the time I don't even know why I'm stressed out. Kinda feel like I went from doing things to help out to being the housekeeper and my mate has become the butler and groundskeeper. I miss my friends. I need to stop bitching.
Anyway, back to reality. I do have some things coming up, that are things to look forward to. My grandparents are going to Arkansas for a family reunion next month and we are planning to drive up and meet them. Also I'm hosting a "slumber party" at the end of the month..basically got talked into it by a non-furry friend, so gonna look at all kinda of sexy things with a bunch of other girls.
Guess I should do some chores...
I've been feeling a little...tired, over inspired, unproductive and home sick...? Maybe home sick is not the right way to put it. I wanna go curl up in a comfy place with familiar people, in a hidden place with the last golden light of the day filtering through a window, or trees. Yeah trees would be nice..and as the last of the golden light fades from the sky and my favorite time of day, the time I've lovely dubbed years ago as "my blue time"( the time of day where the shadows blend so well with everything you can't tell when things actually turned to night time. Light a joint and relax. I have been working so hard to produce as much art or crafty projects this summer, that I haven't been able to spend as much quality time working on most. I have read some interesting journals of people I "knew" from years ago...but I never really knew them, just the idea I had built in my mind. I want to be able to create and express myself like they have and do. But I feel oppressed..held down..forced to conform out of repect? I hate living where I am, I want to be able to afford a place of our own..just my husband, son and myself. Where I can feel like a real adult again. I don't know why I'm crying..just need the release...the freedom to do what I want. Half the time I don't even know why I'm stressed out. Kinda feel like I went from doing things to help out to being the housekeeper and my mate has become the butler and groundskeeper. I miss my friends. I need to stop bitching.
Anyway, back to reality. I do have some things coming up, that are things to look forward to. My grandparents are going to Arkansas for a family reunion next month and we are planning to drive up and meet them. Also I'm hosting a "slumber party" at the end of the month..basically got talked into it by a non-furry friend, so gonna look at all kinda of sexy things with a bunch of other girls.
Guess I should do some chores...