*shrug*
ah well today was...interesting? school was the usual, the whole day went by very quickly, the past 2 1/2 hours seem like seconds blurred together.
basically the art show is my topic, though not the show itself, that was nice yes but you know how it goes. well we are all wandering around lari and i are supposed to babysit brenden and such, then we go outside on the hill behind the school which was fun of course. eva and i tried getting a rope off the fence and i was so focused on that damn knot i was oblivious to everything around me, it was odd but anyway, brenden i believe, comes running over "leeanna, kevin is bleeding!" and i look over and all i see is kevin glancing at his hand and then throwing the piece of broken mirror over the fence.
of course me with my overly kind and caring nature i run over all worried. i know i "overreacted" but honestly in the 3 seconds it all happened, who wouldn't have been concerned? it was nothing big a few minor cuts from being a typical boy jumping fences or whatever... but i know how easily someone closing a door turns into your little brother being rushed to the hospital with his thumb "hanging by a thread".
once back inside the school we are standing at the corner by eva's locker and we start a little "tickle fight" and some powertrippy janitor woman starts bitching at me because from all the way down the hall she "saw what we were doing" (she assumed we were being dirty). when i realized she was bitching at me it was too late to think. i merely told her that we weren't doing anything, the honest truth, and let her walk away bitching. shortly after i commented that she should stop taking those hallucinigens. i mean honestly, tickling does not look like making out or whatever she thought she saw.
oh but it didn't end there. dad had to be irritating as usual, so lari had to get the heat off and push all responsibility of fault on me and bitch about everything that happened and exaggerate a touch to top it all off. yes. how lovely. so as soon as i could i escaped to my sanctuary sad/strange as it is, the tub. i was in there for a good hour reading the illustrated man, listening to mr. bungle, and thinking. i'm pretty sure my thoughts have stopped whirling around in my head, but that doesn't mean the thoughts are sorted at all. at least i am now calm. lari tried being nice a few minutes ago hugging me like she understood, but i brushed it off. i didn't want her "kindness". i feel rude about it now....*sigh*
why am i so weak? aloof? stupid? angry? confused? alone?
who knows. not i.
basically the art show is my topic, though not the show itself, that was nice yes but you know how it goes. well we are all wandering around lari and i are supposed to babysit brenden and such, then we go outside on the hill behind the school which was fun of course. eva and i tried getting a rope off the fence and i was so focused on that damn knot i was oblivious to everything around me, it was odd but anyway, brenden i believe, comes running over "leeanna, kevin is bleeding!" and i look over and all i see is kevin glancing at his hand and then throwing the piece of broken mirror over the fence.
of course me with my overly kind and caring nature i run over all worried. i know i "overreacted" but honestly in the 3 seconds it all happened, who wouldn't have been concerned? it was nothing big a few minor cuts from being a typical boy jumping fences or whatever... but i know how easily someone closing a door turns into your little brother being rushed to the hospital with his thumb "hanging by a thread".
once back inside the school we are standing at the corner by eva's locker and we start a little "tickle fight" and some powertrippy janitor woman starts bitching at me because from all the way down the hall she "saw what we were doing" (she assumed we were being dirty). when i realized she was bitching at me it was too late to think. i merely told her that we weren't doing anything, the honest truth, and let her walk away bitching. shortly after i commented that she should stop taking those hallucinigens. i mean honestly, tickling does not look like making out or whatever she thought she saw.
oh but it didn't end there. dad had to be irritating as usual, so lari had to get the heat off and push all responsibility of fault on me and bitch about everything that happened and exaggerate a touch to top it all off. yes. how lovely. so as soon as i could i escaped to my sanctuary sad/strange as it is, the tub. i was in there for a good hour reading the illustrated man, listening to mr. bungle, and thinking. i'm pretty sure my thoughts have stopped whirling around in my head, but that doesn't mean the thoughts are sorted at all. at least i am now calm. lari tried being nice a few minutes ago hugging me like she understood, but i brushed it off. i didn't want her "kindness". i feel rude about it now....*sigh*
why am i so weak? aloof? stupid? angry? confused? alone?
who knows. not i.