Confusion always sets in
So basically it was a vacation. I guess being home made me feel like I'm running away from everything I built for myself out there. I had independence in Arizona and out here, it a clutch for money and scavangers. It's just the same old thing I don't want to see anymore. It's nice to see some people change for the better though. My dad's pretty upset about the whole thing. He doesn't want to see me move away again, especially under the circumstances. See... I'm going back to my apartment. I'm going to see how things work with Josh and I. It's so weird to find love. I almost thought it wasn't possible. It happened so damn fast. But that's cool. I've enjoyed every moment of it. Plus I talk about him alot. Couple of friends out here are getting pretty pissed about it, especially since he's driven me back to AZ. Ah, I miss him so much. I'm going back on the sixth or seventh. HOPEFULLY, this woman that called me tonight informed me that her son is looking for a place to stay until April or when his first semester at UAT is done :D. PERFECT! Hopefully it accomidates his needs. After that, I have no clue where I'm going to go. Maybe Josh's and pay rent there and stuff, who knows. It will be quite the experience living with him. I think it will be awesome :). I wish my dad would have my back on this more. I'm glad to know I have my brother's support though. My sister's all judging me on it. It's okay. I hope my dad visits me more in AZ if that's the case. He never came down during that nine months and I went crazy. I don't want to go through that again, but at the same time I can't stay here. Wish me luck.