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What is your name?: Ben
Are you named after anyone?: Yep
What's your screename?: zerothefireninja / deathscythe81
Would you name a child of yours after you?: maybe
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your
name be?: It would have been Brandy
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I dunno
Are there any mispronunciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: My last name is only 3 letters and almost no one is able to spell it correctly.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No desire to be famous
-Basics :
Your gender:: Male
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight
Birthdate:: 7/3
Your age:: 24
Age you act:: Older, every once and a while I act younger
Age you wish you were: 17 (I would do a lot of things differently)
Your height:: 6'0"
Eye color:: Hazel
Happy with it?: Yeah
Hair color:: Brownish
Happy with it?: I guess
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Lefty
Your living arrangement:: I don't really live anywhere. My mailing address is my parents house, but I live in a various combination of my parent's house, Katie's house, and my cars/trucks.
Your family:: Is cool most of the time.
Have any pets?: Yep
where do you work?: At a Hospital as a Transporter.
Piercings?: NONE
Tattoos?: NONE
Obsessions?: I don't really feel I am obsessed with anything right now. Besides trying to salvage/shape my life.
Addictions?: None, recently beat a caffeine addiction though.
Do you speak another language?: I know enough of about 4 other different languages to get me slapped. Other then that I just speak English.
Have a favorite quote?: "Tact is the ability to tell a man to go to hell and make him feel happy to be on his way" -Author Unknown.
Do you have a webpage?: LJ & Myspace, otherwise No
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it: None really, that I understand anyways
Do you live in the moment?: No, to many others depend on me for me to do something as wreck less as that
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I try to be, it doesn't always work though.
Do you have any secrets?: We all have secrets
Do you hate yourself?: At times, then again everyone thinks in a similar fashion every now and then.
Do you like your handwriting?: Most of my writing is in text. Other then that my handwriting isn't much better then a child's. At least others can read it.
Do you have any bad habits?: Yep
What is the compliment you get from most people?: You are such a hard worker...
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Ben...The Movie (What the hell kind of question is this?)
What's your biggest fear?: Failure
Can you sing?: Badly
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No
Are you a loner?: Not by choice
What are your #1 priorities in life?: My relationship with Katie, Alison and my family
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: How would I know?
Are you a daredevil?: No
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yes
Are you passive or aggressive?: Depends on the situation
Do you have a journal?: Yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: My greatest strength is my greatest weakness, myself
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: My indecisiveness
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: At times
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Being Lazy when I was younger/getting my life in order before now
Do you think life has been good so far?: Of course
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Keep your eyes open and your mouth shut. There is so much to learn just by paying attention. You have no clue how much you can learn.
What do you like the most about your body?: I dunno
And least?: Budda Belly (I'm slowly killing it though)
Do you think you are good looking?: No, then again I don't have to look at me.
Are you confident?: At times
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Trowa Barton
Are you perceived wrongly?: At times
-Do You...
Smoke?: No, I'm a hell of a lot smarter then that
Do drugs?: No, I'm a hell of a lot smarter then that
Read the newspaper?: Yes
Pray?: Every day I try to remember to pray, even if it is just a short one before bed.
Go to church?: When I can
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Rarely
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Bobby Joe has been sitting on the corner of my bed since I was 5 years old.
Take walks in the rain?: Yep, did so about 2 weeks ago.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: I dislike a lot of people, there are many people who I wish would just go away and stay there, but I try real hard to not hate anyone. However, I do have to talk to people I dislike almost every day.
Drive?: Yes
Like to drive fast?: At times
-Would or Have You Ever:
Liked your voice?: I don't even hear my voice, I know it is very different to others then it is in my own head.
Hurt yourself?: Yes I have hurt myself, many times. Not on purpose.
Been out of the country?: Cut through Canada on a drive to Salem, Mass
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Not that I recall
Been in love?: Yes.
Done drugs?: No, I am a hell of a lot smarter then that
Gone skinny dipping?: No
Had a medical emergency?: Yes
Had surgery?: No, I refuse. Maybe one day I will if I have to and if they can convince me.
Ran away from home?: Nope
Played strip poker?: Nope
Gotten beaten up?: Yes, It happens
Beaten someone up?: Yep
Been picked on?: Yes, It happens
Been on stage?: Yes
Slept outdoors?: Yes
Thought about suicide?: Everyone has wondered what it would be like if they were not here. It is a natural part of life.
Pulled an all nighter?: Not for school and not by choice
If yes, what is your record?: for almost 2 months I was averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night for every 2 days.
Gone one day without food?: Yes
Talked on the phone all night?: Not all night, but I think my longest call ever was about 2 hours
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Of course, not every night involves sex
Slept all day?: Not even when I am sick
Killed someone?: No
Made out with a stranger?: No
Had sex with a stranger?: Never
Thought you're going crazy?: It happens
Kissed the same sex?: Yes. If I remember correctly when Sis told me that her and her husband were engaged I grabbed him by the sides of his head a layed one on him. Then I welcomes him to the family. This was just to confuse the poor guy and make him wonder what he was getting into.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Never
Been betrayed?: Yes
Had a dream that came true?: Yes
Broken the law?: Everyone has to some degree
Met a famous person?: Yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yes, about 2 weeks ago a bird hit my windshield while I was driving. It bounced off and hit the road. So I Believe I finally killed something besides bugs.
On purpose?: No
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Unfortunately I have, I had to decide to either A: break someone's trust in me or B: save their life. They are alive to this day, but still will not speak with me.
Stolen anything?: Again, this is something everyone has done to some degree.
Been on radio/tv?: Yes
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes, I even layed out someone while in it. Teach that fucker to hit me.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yep
Bungee jumped?: No
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes
-Beliefs:
Belive in life on other planets?: It could happen
Miracles?: Yes
Astrology?: Zodiac signs, horoscopes and all that? I guess it has a place somewhere
Magic?: Of course
God?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Santa?: In my own way
Ghosts?: Yes
Luck?: Most people do
Love at first sight?: Not really. I believe in infatuation at first sight.
Yin and yang (that good can't exist w/o bad)?: Afraid so, every time something is fixed something else breaks. Every time there is good somewhere there is some bad. If everything was all good how would we know it truly is good?
Witches?: No
Easter bunny?: No
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Of course
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: There is no end to the rainbow
Do you wish on stars?: Yes
-Deep Theological Questions:
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: I don't know if the visions in my head match "traditional views" or not.
Do you think God has a gender?: Maybe, maybe not. Kevin Smith might be right on this one.
Do you believe in organized religion?: I believe in it because I know it exists.
Where do you think we go when we die?: Either an urn or in the ground. As far as our souls...that goes back to religious beliefs and I believe in Heaven/Hell. I wish to go to Heaven.
-Friends:
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes
Who is your best friend?: I can't say for certain who
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: My Mother
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Be careful
Your favorite inside joke?: Not-Heso
Thing you're picked on most about?: Not matching the idea/definition that many guys match.
Who's your longest known friend?: Ninja
Newest?: Dunno, been so long I can't remember
Shyest?: Dunno
Funniest?: Dunno
Sweetest?: Dunno
Closest?: Dunno
Weirdest?: Dunno
Smartest?: Dunno
Ditziest?: Dunno
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Dunno
Last person you talked to online?: Katie
Who do you talk to most online?: Katie
Who are you on the phone with most?: Katie
Who do you trust most?: Myself
Who listens to your problems?: A few people say they listen, I don't know if any of them are really listening though.
Who do you fight most with?: Dunno
Who's the nicest?: Dunno
Who's the most outgoing?: Dunno
Who's the best singer?: Dunno
Who's on your shit-list?: Dunno
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Nope
Who's your second family?: The Kaestners
Do you always feel understood?: No
Who's the loudest friend?: Dunno
Do you trust others easily?: Nope
Who's house were you last at?: Besides my parent's house...Katie's house
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: My Katie
Do your friends know you?: Doubt it
Friend that lives farthest away: Dunno
-Love and All That:
Do you consider love a mistake?: Not a mistake, just misunderstood and a lot harder then people think it is.
What do you find romantic?: Time, trust, honesty, caring, etc... Ya know, all that small stuff that means so much.
First kiss?: 14 years old on my front porch.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: Would not really care
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out?: Yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: lol its not? It is socially acceptable. I have never asked a girl out before.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Some do sometimes
What is best about the opposite sex?: That they are the opposite sex. (What kind of a stupid question is that?)
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: No one can understand women, not even them.
What's the last present someone gave you?: Katie made me cookies.
Are you in love?: Yes
-Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Dunno
You wanted to kill?: I have wanted to hurt some people before, I have said I wanted to kill someone before, but I don't think I have actually wanted to kill anyone before.
That you laughed at?: Jason
That laughed at you?: Jason
That turned you on?: Katie
You went shopping with?: Katie
That broke your heart?: Katie
To disappoint you?: Katie
To make you cry?: Katie
To brighten up your day?: Katie
You saw a movie with?: Katie
You talked to on the phone?: Katie
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Katie
You saw?: Technically JJ because I am at work.
You lost?: A pt that I was supposed to return from PACU who was gone when I got there.
-Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: Nope, I am at work
What are you wearing right now?: Scrubs/Boots
Body part you're touching right now:: My ankles are touching as I sit in this chair and type.
What are you worried about right now?: A few people know, the rest don't need to
What book are you reading?: None right now, I just finished one last week. (Last Man Down)
What's on your mouse pad?: The computer I use mostly has a touch pad and does not have a mouse pad.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Tired, Bored, Unhappy, Annoyed, Restless
Are you bored?: A little
Are you tired?: Yes
Are you talking to anyone online?: No
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No
Are you lonely or content?: Varies
Are you listening to music?: No