we turns 2!!!
june 3,2005 when me and mak became lovers..we were so hooked with each other that we ditched off our then bf/gf..i dunno..it juts happened..we had a lot going on..before i started to be serious with what we have..i was dating somebody else..and it still continued till i just realized that im falling dangerously inlove with MAK..we fight at times..i admit..we had a lot of up's and down's..i was wasted a lot of times..drunk at the most..but he still keeps on loving me..being there for me..months past when a problem rose..i ran away from home..i stayed with him..i've experienced to be hungry at times that i no longer eat 3x day..to be lonely..to long for a trip with what i used to have..i've missed a lot..nothing more,nothing less..then the fights again..now the reason is me..of how i live my life,how outerageous me lifestyle was and how can he not enjoy my trip..verbal fights turned to physical hurting and we became more violent to one another than what we used to...2006 came..this is the most painful part..the month was march..he then call it quits..he told me things that he kept deeply in his heart that one day it just exploded and he cant take it anymore..the worst part is..he is DRUNK..for me,to say things that you dont mormally say to anyone while your drunk is being true or eal to what you feel..you are vulnerable to a ot of things..that's what i am afraid of..i cant face the fact that he was gone..i've dated and dated and continued dated..and i know by far that he dated too..then he called me last JUNE 3 to say that he misses me and how he wished that we were together on the day of our supposed ANNIVERSARY..i pushed him away..for a reason that i know that if i'll see him..i'll still love him..and how i'll wish to put things back the way they used to be..JUNE 9 he called again to say that his birthday is near..he invited me and told me something that i cannot say..again,i pushed him away..JUNE 11 is his birthday..i told him that i cannot come..i wanted to surprise him..things happened..shit fuck came..bitches were thrown to him..he declined..for i was there..days past we met again..we told things to each other..whether its genuine or fake..i believed him..now our 2nd ANNIVERSARY is dawning..and im wishing that he is the one that i'll marry someday..i want him to be the father of my children..the grandfather of my grandchildren..to grow old with..and thats it..i can live forever or if not..im just thankful that he as with me..
to my loving PANGZ...whether you'll read this or not..this is for you..
to my loving PANGZ...whether you'll read this or not..this is for you..