.irritated
im just really irritated right now and feel like venting.
first of all, my mother fucking pisses me off. right now, i have nothing nice to say to her or about her. all she does is put me down and put me in a worse mood. she thinks shes perfect, and shes the only one on the planet who knows how to have a "successful" life, which is fucking ridiculous because she's one of the most miserable people i know. just because i dont feel like living my life exactly how she lived hers does not mean that i am doing anything wrong. ive got my shit together, just not how she wants it.
also, i am so completely sick of being criticised by people, im tired of being judged. go find something better to do with yourself. no one cares what you think. i dont change myself for you, havnt you caught on by now? let me live my life, i let you live yours.
i think i just need a serious break from people. ive realized that its never me that makes my life miserable, it only happens when someone else interferes.
im at a point now where im ready for a life make-over, im ready to quit living the way that people expect me to live. im tired of living safely, im ready to do what I want to do, when i want to do it, and because i want to do it. seriously, people are so quick to jump into these safe little routines and patterns and end up unhappy. YOU ONLY GET ONE LIFE! fucking do something with it. im sick of everyone, just go away.
//rant.
ps: i know you think you know what this was about, when actually you have absolutely no idea. see what i mean about judging?