03.13.07
I sit down to write an entry about what has happened this week, about how insane things have gotten, and how positive and negative moments come in overwhelming bundles.. but then I realize that the stokes of my fingers on the keyboard will be in vain, that only I, although mostly no one, is interested. So I will merely say:
I needed this so much and you knew. Somehow from so far away, you knew. Once again you'll leave without so much as a promise to see me again, but we'll both know what is unspoken. That the relationships I chase and pursue are empty. I will cling on to what we have and what we don't, because I suppose it is what has kept me going for so long. Maybe you understand that, maybe you don't.. it doesn't matter. People can say what they want, they always do. They don't know, though, they don't even know you. I guess all I can really say is thank you. Someday in the future...
I needed this so much and you knew. Somehow from so far away, you knew. Once again you'll leave without so much as a promise to see me again, but we'll both know what is unspoken. That the relationships I chase and pursue are empty. I will cling on to what we have and what we don't, because I suppose it is what has kept me going for so long. Maybe you understand that, maybe you don't.. it doesn't matter. People can say what they want, they always do. They don't know, though, they don't even know you. I guess all I can really say is thank you. Someday in the future...