Where to go from here
Should I go or should I stay? Where is my life going? Should I stay here and go to school? I hate it here. It makes me anxious. Like I haven't gotten out of my skin. I want to go to Nebraska. But...i'm afraid. Jeremy told me yesterday that he would never want me again. It shouldn't of hurt, I mean it's been 5 months...but it did. It hurt a lot. I don't know if i'd be able to live there without longing for him. How could I visit Dene, who lives on the same block as him, and not want to run into the apartment me and him used to share? It hurts too much to breathe. I'm pathetic.
Omaha scares me too. I am not a big city girl. But i'll have Jess and Jenn. They will help me. Or should I stay so...Actually I have no realy reasons to stay. Except for like my family and friends, but they were still there for me when I was in Nebraska the last time...There will be more people to meet and date in Nebraska. There is no one here for me. I don't know. I think something is wrong with me. I'm not attracted to anyone. I went to the club the other night, and the only people I liked looked like Jeremy. And this one guy who had and AFI tee-shirt on...but thats another story... I hate myself...What should I do with my life?
Omaha scares me too. I am not a big city girl. But i'll have Jess and Jenn. They will help me. Or should I stay so...Actually I have no realy reasons to stay. Except for like my family and friends, but they were still there for me when I was in Nebraska the last time...There will be more people to meet and date in Nebraska. There is no one here for me. I don't know. I think something is wrong with me. I'm not attracted to anyone. I went to the club the other night, and the only people I liked looked like Jeremy. And this one guy who had and AFI tee-shirt on...but thats another story... I hate myself...What should I do with my life?