back again

[deathrose1147]

Hello everyone. um yeah me and Christian are back together and you know what its gonna stay that way. i'm not going to get paranoid like i did last time cuz that was just bad. I love him i really do and now i realize i can't live without him. he can actually make me happy and not very many people can do that. And those that say long distance relationship suck well i think that they make people stronger even though it can get very difficult at times. And the hardest time will be when (and also if) he gets deployed. How the crap am i gonna live through that, i have no idea but i'm stronger than most think. I think if he gets deployed i am just gonna stop talking about him to everyone because i don't want anyone's opinion!!! thats what screwed me up the last time and the time b4 that. i'm gonna write about it and i will write whatever i feel like and not a soul will see. ok i'm done now

hold on to me love you know I can’t stay long all I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid can you hear me? can you feel me in your arms? holding my last breath safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you sweet raptured light it ends here tonight I’ll miss the winter a world of fragile things look for me in the white forest hiding in a hollow tree (come find me) I know you hear me I can taste it in your tears holding my last breath safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you sweet raptured light it ends here tonight closing your eyes to disappear you pray your dreams will leave you here but still you wake and know the truth no one’s there say goodnight don’t be afraid calling me calling me as you fade to black