Unexpected drastic changes...
Although enjoying my new company, I can't help but long for yesterday's company. I'm experiencing an emotional roller coaster. I'm extremely happy and extremely hurt at the same time. I never predicted anything like this happening. I hope it only works out for the best. I can't help but have this romantic fantasy where we meet sometime from now after we're comfortable in life and fall madly in love all over again and spend the rest of our days on this earth together... Highly unlikely, but I will continue to dream. I hope we can mature and learn from this and eventually all hang out and share friends again and not do this ridiculous, "I'll see them Friday, you seem them Saturday" thing. I miss you. I miss everyone. I miss my life the way it used to be. But it wasn't the way it "used to be" for a while...this change was unwanted and inevitable...but necessary nonetheless.
[EDIT] Yeah...fuck that...I don't ever want you back. I'm actually happy and loved now. Thanks.
[EDIT] Yeah...fuck that...I don't ever want you back. I'm actually happy and loved now. Thanks.