of rabbits, warrens, plans, and futures
rabbit now has a warren to maintain. and all the responsibilities that go along with such. after taking such a long break from this, the fact of it is daunting, but in a very delicious, shivery sort of way.
it was nice to play hostess. strange to play sober hostess. typically when i hold a gathering, i am in the forefront of the broken troop, egging all others on... "c'mon... that keg stand won't hurt any..." (generally followed by maniacal laughter and someone crashing to the floor... perhaps me... and then brought full circle again with more laughter).
no, these things did not happen. rabbit is growing up. she has nice things and an actual desire to preserve them. she is perhaps thinking that she, herself, may just be one of those nice things... or, she is at the very least trying to learn to entertain that notion.
everyone seemed to have a good time. although i had a few rocky points where i struggled to keep a very important promise made to myself with many friends as witnesses... i had a good time too. red bull (thanks, emturtle!) and metal and mineral charms to click together with a silent mantra of "animal, machine, animal, machine, synthesis, synthesis!" (thanks arialrainfire and a_machine!) worked a special kind of magick for me. i do realize that most of that working came from me... but without a good focal point, what good is an idea, really?
i'm happy. i'm busy. i'm pleased.
it was refreshing to travel to the colony the next day for a lovely small gathering and feeding... sans evening hangover and shakiness. the fact that i seem to be "becoming wise"... having an extremely agonizing wisdom tooth experience presently... pales in comparision to the wreck that all the potential was there for me to be.
and... PLANS!
my life is about to explode! there are so many things that are going to happen! i like this forward momentum thing, and see no reason whatsoever to stop it now... there are some awfully great surprises in store for everyone... and i can't wait to broadcast to the world how happy i am, and shock my friends... the very planet... with the things i have in store!
i can't wait to shock myself.
i feel something coming on. fasten your seatbelts, cats and kittens, this ride is about to get interesting in a way it never has before. we have now boarded the up and out bunnicopter, so from here on, it's all about colours never seen before and skylines un-imagined and thought to be impossible.
did i mention the fact that almost everything is trying to be perfect?
it's the time of the fruition of spring, i am in that timeframe in my life; i have a beautiful home that is my home; i am madly in love; i have a skill that nearly consumes me with it's need to be articulated.
creation, creation, creation. rebirth.
now, if someone would just take a sledgehammer to my poor aching head that insists on growing useless teeth, i could physically bounce off the walls the way my mind tells me i should be doing.
ah! the gods bring balance.
love and razorblades,
dissonance
it was nice to play hostess. strange to play sober hostess. typically when i hold a gathering, i am in the forefront of the broken troop, egging all others on... "c'mon... that keg stand won't hurt any..." (generally followed by maniacal laughter and someone crashing to the floor... perhaps me... and then brought full circle again with more laughter).
no, these things did not happen. rabbit is growing up. she has nice things and an actual desire to preserve them. she is perhaps thinking that she, herself, may just be one of those nice things... or, she is at the very least trying to learn to entertain that notion.
everyone seemed to have a good time. although i had a few rocky points where i struggled to keep a very important promise made to myself with many friends as witnesses... i had a good time too. red bull (thanks, emturtle!) and metal and mineral charms to click together with a silent mantra of "animal, machine, animal, machine, synthesis, synthesis!" (thanks arialrainfire and a_machine!) worked a special kind of magick for me. i do realize that most of that working came from me... but without a good focal point, what good is an idea, really?
i'm happy. i'm busy. i'm pleased.
it was refreshing to travel to the colony the next day for a lovely small gathering and feeding... sans evening hangover and shakiness. the fact that i seem to be "becoming wise"... having an extremely agonizing wisdom tooth experience presently... pales in comparision to the wreck that all the potential was there for me to be.
and... PLANS!
my life is about to explode! there are so many things that are going to happen! i like this forward momentum thing, and see no reason whatsoever to stop it now... there are some awfully great surprises in store for everyone... and i can't wait to broadcast to the world how happy i am, and shock my friends... the very planet... with the things i have in store!
i can't wait to shock myself.
i feel something coming on. fasten your seatbelts, cats and kittens, this ride is about to get interesting in a way it never has before. we have now boarded the up and out bunnicopter, so from here on, it's all about colours never seen before and skylines un-imagined and thought to be impossible.
did i mention the fact that almost everything is trying to be perfect?
it's the time of the fruition of spring, i am in that timeframe in my life; i have a beautiful home that is my home; i am madly in love; i have a skill that nearly consumes me with it's need to be articulated.
creation, creation, creation. rebirth.
now, if someone would just take a sledgehammer to my poor aching head that insists on growing useless teeth, i could physically bounce off the walls the way my mind tells me i should be doing.
ah! the gods bring balance.
love and razorblades,
dissonance