The super long part 2
So here's part 2. You'll think this is something "sexual" toward my family but you'll see later.
I don't know how much to involve in this one. Sorry if there's holes.
But anyway...since that happened my sister must have been planning something for me. She always has to get vengeance on something I do and up it one. As I stated below...she used to use Layla on me. Then smoking. And now anything I do she considers bad she does 50 times worse so can't rat me out on it. So she went to the past. Way past. And as is the norm for her, she takes something and in her sick twisted mind, she molds it and forms something else. She can make a feather turn into a dinosaur that ate her cuz she looked at it and believe it and present it as truth.
So ANYWAY for the next 3 weeks she was just horrible. She didn't try to hide it as I stated...and was awful to us. Apparently she had somethin for me and I guess I hurt her that bad. So she started arguing bout something with me one day and I said "be quiet I have shit on you that you don't even know I know about...but I'm being civil and keeping quiet about it so just please...leave me alone don't force me to make you shut up" And she comes back with "oh don't worry...I got something on you. Something big." Me saying "I'm sure you do" And her responding again with "oh don't worry. I do. You're so sick. You're perverted"
Well...as it turns out, the 25th of April she told her teacher something. I'll get to that later. That day or so I get home from work and there's a lady in the driveway. She introduces herself as dyfs and I go "oh great" in my head cuz we've had encounters before (all cuz of Jeanine of course). She asks to speak to my mom or my sister...well they aren't home so she gives me her card and tells me to have one of them call her please. So I give my mom the card, tell her about it and she never called apparently.
2-3 days down the line she's back and there's two cop cars in front of our lawn. They want Jeanine. She's out with my dad. My mom has to call them home, and this whole time NONE of them are telling why they are here. Well she gets home so they all come in and go into the living room to talk. There's a knife on a plate from someone eating fruit in the room. My mom takes the knife, gives it to me to put in the sink. Get to that later.
So they talk to my sister for awhile as the cop comes in to watch tv with me and dad. He's tryin to make jokes with us but I'm not talkin cuz I know somethin is up. So he goes in to talk to her after awhile, and comes back (apparently I'm guessing this is the time he wanted to start talking to me) saying my parents need to go with Jeanine down to the station. I figured she was in trouble for something. So then they go "we need Steve too" and that's when my ears shot up and I knew somethin was up cuz why would I need to go. And get this...the reason we need to go to the police station is cuz my mom had the knife in her hand and he knows we're probably good people but he don't know us and his nerves are on edge and would feel better there. So we all go.
Now...after waiting in an interogation room for 30 mins he comes in and lays the bomb. He told me I was being accused of exposing myself and forcing my sister to touch me and pleasure me as I forced her to watch porn multiple times from the ages of 4-12. I didn't even know what to say. I couldn't believe she went that far to get me in trouble. And the funny thing was I kept thinkin in my head she'd eventualy cry wolf of something eventually to nail the final nail in me. I was irate. So they went to talk to her for 2 hours as my parents and I are in this small room going crazy.
Then it's my turn. He brings me in with the dyfs lady. He brings me in, reads me my rights while he's reading them on a piece of paper. And I have to sign them which I didn't like doing. He asks me some questions to test my 'honesty.' Apparently I didn't do too hot in that area (until later he asked my parents and they confirmed my story, cuz I was confused by one of his questions and answered it wrong at first).
-So then we get into the heavy shit.
-He goes "Steve, got a TV in your room"
-I said yes.
-He asked when I got it
-"14"
-"And you got cable up there? So that's Cablevision. And you know about the fuzzy porn station right? Channel 98. Don't lie every guy in the world knows about it till they took it off"
-"No, I don't deny it"
Then he goes "Besides the porn what else did you watch" And that pissed me off he squeezed that one in like that. Then he went on asking if I've ever shown my sister. Or if I let her in my room. I said no to both. I hate her in my room and she only goes in to spy on what I got in ther when I'm not in and steals shit or ruins shit. So he drops that.
He then asks if I've ever been left alone with my sister at those young ages. I say no. He insists I had. I tell him no my mom took off work when my sister was born, to the age of 5. He then asks what after those ages. I say she went to work but took us all to school (her in pre-k) and then came home as soon as we got home. He, being ever persistant, insisted that since my dad still worked, my mom was bound to be doing errands and that we'd be left alone. Now..I was getting mad at this point...and scared...so I said something that was probably a little stupid but truthful. I said "Sir...you have a son. You would know. Would you leave him home alone at the age of 7? No..I don't think so" Just like that...and he didn't say anything...but he turned real red and he gave me this stare and I KNEW he was pissed. So then I said "sir...my mom knew we hated eachother even then we had legendary fights. She'd have taken us with her if we were alone"
So then he drops it and moves on "so you never were home alone with your sister and touched her in any way" "No" "what about the glowsticks" THEN it hit me. Back when I was between the ages of like...9-12 or so? My sister had this friend Vicky and I had a major "crush" on her. And she did too. And every time we came over we'd talk a bit. So one day I was invited into my sister's room and we decided to play a game. My sister had these electric plastic see-through tubes that had little lights on them when you turned off the lights...so she turned off the lights and we sat in a circle. We couldn't see shit...and we decided to "explore" And I only explored Vicky. Vicky "explored" me and Jeanine. Who knows if Jeanine did anything back to Vicky or if she was one of the ones doin it to me...But here's the thing...we didn't do anything w/o the clothes on and I KNOW I didn't touch Jeanine. And he said that happened a few times (minus of course her insisting I touched her too) butI told him it happened once.
And then he moves on to asking if I had evr pulled her clothes off or anything like that, I said no (he was just asking that cuz it was of similar topic, not what she said). So he moved on. Next he asked me if I had ever had my fly/pants down and exposed myself on purpose or on accident and brought it out. I immediatly said no. I told him, as far as I know I didn't. If I ever did, it was on accident and it wasn't intentional. Obviously it wasn't important or intended cuz I don't remember it. If she saw it, it was probably on accident and cuz those boxers sometimes have the things w/o buttons on them...and it was never intentional. So as far as I know..no.
So that's all it was. At first...I was accused of molesting her and shit from what he understood...but after talking it came out that she had said I had played with the "glowstick" game on her, shown her my shit (on accident or purpose) and she had come in to the bathroom a few times seeing me naked and I made her watch porn or she came in and caught me watching it. Two were wrong (the glowstick and porn), the other I don't remember (the fly) and the other everyone does...who's never walked in on someone on the toilet?
So it turned up to be nothing. The cops were only involved cuz no one had responded and she needed a presense to help with that situation just in case 'something was going on' or something like that as if we had a reason not to call.
He talked to my parents after...came back...and said there's no charges cuz there was nothing wrong that happened. It's normal, everyone does it. It's kid shit. He said if I had been doing more serious shit and at the age of 14 and over, it would be pushin it but not at the ages. Which is to say if I even DID do it (which as I've said, I didn't, and he believes most of it).
And if you think about it...it IS normal. I know many stories of people exploring with their siblings. It's usually the first sexual encounter usually too. My mom even shared her story with the cop but that didn't make me feel better lol. She then confirmed to hte cop that 90% of what she said was expanded and a lie and the cop says "I can understand tha but it's that 10% that I believe that he confirmed" Which is not remembering really if I did (so saying it COULD have happened) and the glowstick game with Vicky.
So nothing bogus came out of it...but BECAUSE dyfs (and the cops) knew of our past situation and how bad we were around eachother...and what an accusation or a step like this would do to the family, let alone eachother they decided we needed to not be together.
Here's the shit part. Dyfs now has to move in and get some 'programs' together for us as a family and her. Since she's messed up alot they have to get her some single HARD GRADE therapy and then the rest of us a family therapy I guess.
Now the worst part. UNTIL that is in place, and maybe not even after, I can't be around her. So because I'm the adult and she's the minor they can't force her out and so I have to leave. Wow. How shit. So because I'm an "adult" I have to move out. I had planned to...but not OMG RIGHT NOW!!!!! you know? I have nowhere to go...no plans. Now here's the thing...when the original charges sounded worse when they first told us my parents immediatly backed me up and defended me and when we were waiting they were talking about letting ME stay and her getting the fuck out cuz of her problems recently. Stating mom: "at least you are doing something with your life - college, work and helping make the family better when she's just going through her shit now." They'd rather HER leave than me but they don't want either of us to leave, but apparently it's not our call.
And my sister WANTED to leave. For 2 years she's been hardcore pushing leaving the family cuz she hates us all and can't take it. Wants to emancipate herself. My parents were like 'well she wants it, let her' she's beyond help...so don't go tellin me my parents suck for sayin that. You have no idea. Anyway...so lucky us she had a friend's house to go to and she's been there since then (which was last Wednesday)and she was supposed to come home tonight but got another night. Well DYFS was supposed to come over today and discuss what's going on and find out that I'm leaving eventually..but they didn't and my sister got another night so it reall helps me out.
Basically if I HAVE to (even with their shit services in place) my parents said they'd take me to a hotel a few nights and be with me and maybe if we HAVE to, go to my grandparents but we don't wanna burden them and I don't wanna face the questions cuz I don't wanna explain what happened to her...and the other choice is the farm...but the only problem with that is, I'll be so secluded with NO technology for who knows how long.
So if we all go to therapy, get everything in motion...we MIGHT not have to move out, away from eachother etc and things can be SEMI normal (with me not being forced to move out) but who knows.
So yah...life's shit right now. I don't know what to do anymore.
PS My sister apparently had been planning this for awhile. The first time she brought it up was last year a little after Rodney (my old best friend) had been kicked out of our house when we found out what he was doing with my sister and the rules he wasn't following. So being that she had nothing on me, she went digging for it and told my parents then and dyfs....which I found out later was why they asked me some questions throughout the year (not about that though)...and again this time when I pissed her off she wanted something so used that again and told a teacher.
Now...that night we were at the police station she claimed she didn't know it would blow up to this and didn't want it to and felt bad for me etc. And I'm thinkin...BULLSHIT! What would you expect when you tell a teacher something like that...how could you NOT know the consequences. So whatever. Some small part of me after all that still holds love for her, but I don't think I can ever face her again the same or even talk to her or forgive her. Just...a shock...this has ruined everything. Everything.
So that's it...the story of my life. Falsely accused of something...get the shit for it.
I don't know how much to involve in this one. Sorry if there's holes.
But anyway...since that happened my sister must have been planning something for me. She always has to get vengeance on something I do and up it one. As I stated below...she used to use Layla on me. Then smoking. And now anything I do she considers bad she does 50 times worse so can't rat me out on it. So she went to the past. Way past. And as is the norm for her, she takes something and in her sick twisted mind, she molds it and forms something else. She can make a feather turn into a dinosaur that ate her cuz she looked at it and believe it and present it as truth.
So ANYWAY for the next 3 weeks she was just horrible. She didn't try to hide it as I stated...and was awful to us. Apparently she had somethin for me and I guess I hurt her that bad. So she started arguing bout something with me one day and I said "be quiet I have shit on you that you don't even know I know about...but I'm being civil and keeping quiet about it so just please...leave me alone don't force me to make you shut up" And she comes back with "oh don't worry...I got something on you. Something big." Me saying "I'm sure you do" And her responding again with "oh don't worry. I do. You're so sick. You're perverted"
Well...as it turns out, the 25th of April she told her teacher something. I'll get to that later. That day or so I get home from work and there's a lady in the driveway. She introduces herself as dyfs and I go "oh great" in my head cuz we've had encounters before (all cuz of Jeanine of course). She asks to speak to my mom or my sister...well they aren't home so she gives me her card and tells me to have one of them call her please. So I give my mom the card, tell her about it and she never called apparently.
2-3 days down the line she's back and there's two cop cars in front of our lawn. They want Jeanine. She's out with my dad. My mom has to call them home, and this whole time NONE of them are telling why they are here. Well she gets home so they all come in and go into the living room to talk. There's a knife on a plate from someone eating fruit in the room. My mom takes the knife, gives it to me to put in the sink. Get to that later.
So they talk to my sister for awhile as the cop comes in to watch tv with me and dad. He's tryin to make jokes with us but I'm not talkin cuz I know somethin is up. So he goes in to talk to her after awhile, and comes back (apparently I'm guessing this is the time he wanted to start talking to me) saying my parents need to go with Jeanine down to the station. I figured she was in trouble for something. So then they go "we need Steve too" and that's when my ears shot up and I knew somethin was up cuz why would I need to go. And get this...the reason we need to go to the police station is cuz my mom had the knife in her hand and he knows we're probably good people but he don't know us and his nerves are on edge and would feel better there. So we all go.
Now...after waiting in an interogation room for 30 mins he comes in and lays the bomb. He told me I was being accused of exposing myself and forcing my sister to touch me and pleasure me as I forced her to watch porn multiple times from the ages of 4-12. I didn't even know what to say. I couldn't believe she went that far to get me in trouble. And the funny thing was I kept thinkin in my head she'd eventualy cry wolf of something eventually to nail the final nail in me. I was irate. So they went to talk to her for 2 hours as my parents and I are in this small room going crazy.
Then it's my turn. He brings me in with the dyfs lady. He brings me in, reads me my rights while he's reading them on a piece of paper. And I have to sign them which I didn't like doing. He asks me some questions to test my 'honesty.' Apparently I didn't do too hot in that area (until later he asked my parents and they confirmed my story, cuz I was confused by one of his questions and answered it wrong at first).
-So then we get into the heavy shit.
-He goes "Steve, got a TV in your room"
-I said yes.
-He asked when I got it
-"14"
-"And you got cable up there? So that's Cablevision. And you know about the fuzzy porn station right? Channel 98. Don't lie every guy in the world knows about it till they took it off"
-"No, I don't deny it"
Then he goes "Besides the porn what else did you watch" And that pissed me off he squeezed that one in like that. Then he went on asking if I've ever shown my sister. Or if I let her in my room. I said no to both. I hate her in my room and she only goes in to spy on what I got in ther when I'm not in and steals shit or ruins shit. So he drops that.
He then asks if I've ever been left alone with my sister at those young ages. I say no. He insists I had. I tell him no my mom took off work when my sister was born, to the age of 5. He then asks what after those ages. I say she went to work but took us all to school (her in pre-k) and then came home as soon as we got home. He, being ever persistant, insisted that since my dad still worked, my mom was bound to be doing errands and that we'd be left alone. Now..I was getting mad at this point...and scared...so I said something that was probably a little stupid but truthful. I said "Sir...you have a son. You would know. Would you leave him home alone at the age of 7? No..I don't think so" Just like that...and he didn't say anything...but he turned real red and he gave me this stare and I KNEW he was pissed. So then I said "sir...my mom knew we hated eachother even then we had legendary fights. She'd have taken us with her if we were alone"
So then he drops it and moves on "so you never were home alone with your sister and touched her in any way" "No" "what about the glowsticks" THEN it hit me. Back when I was between the ages of like...9-12 or so? My sister had this friend Vicky and I had a major "crush" on her. And she did too. And every time we came over we'd talk a bit. So one day I was invited into my sister's room and we decided to play a game. My sister had these electric plastic see-through tubes that had little lights on them when you turned off the lights...so she turned off the lights and we sat in a circle. We couldn't see shit...and we decided to "explore" And I only explored Vicky. Vicky "explored" me and Jeanine. Who knows if Jeanine did anything back to Vicky or if she was one of the ones doin it to me...But here's the thing...we didn't do anything w/o the clothes on and I KNOW I didn't touch Jeanine. And he said that happened a few times (minus of course her insisting I touched her too) butI told him it happened once.
And then he moves on to asking if I had evr pulled her clothes off or anything like that, I said no (he was just asking that cuz it was of similar topic, not what she said). So he moved on. Next he asked me if I had ever had my fly/pants down and exposed myself on purpose or on accident and brought it out. I immediatly said no. I told him, as far as I know I didn't. If I ever did, it was on accident and it wasn't intentional. Obviously it wasn't important or intended cuz I don't remember it. If she saw it, it was probably on accident and cuz those boxers sometimes have the things w/o buttons on them...and it was never intentional. So as far as I know..no.
So that's all it was. At first...I was accused of molesting her and shit from what he understood...but after talking it came out that she had said I had played with the "glowstick" game on her, shown her my shit (on accident or purpose) and she had come in to the bathroom a few times seeing me naked and I made her watch porn or she came in and caught me watching it. Two were wrong (the glowstick and porn), the other I don't remember (the fly) and the other everyone does...who's never walked in on someone on the toilet?
So it turned up to be nothing. The cops were only involved cuz no one had responded and she needed a presense to help with that situation just in case 'something was going on' or something like that as if we had a reason not to call.
He talked to my parents after...came back...and said there's no charges cuz there was nothing wrong that happened. It's normal, everyone does it. It's kid shit. He said if I had been doing more serious shit and at the age of 14 and over, it would be pushin it but not at the ages. Which is to say if I even DID do it (which as I've said, I didn't, and he believes most of it).
And if you think about it...it IS normal. I know many stories of people exploring with their siblings. It's usually the first sexual encounter usually too. My mom even shared her story with the cop but that didn't make me feel better lol. She then confirmed to hte cop that 90% of what she said was expanded and a lie and the cop says "I can understand tha but it's that 10% that I believe that he confirmed" Which is not remembering really if I did (so saying it COULD have happened) and the glowstick game with Vicky.
So nothing bogus came out of it...but BECAUSE dyfs (and the cops) knew of our past situation and how bad we were around eachother...and what an accusation or a step like this would do to the family, let alone eachother they decided we needed to not be together.
Here's the shit part. Dyfs now has to move in and get some 'programs' together for us as a family and her. Since she's messed up alot they have to get her some single HARD GRADE therapy and then the rest of us a family therapy I guess.
Now the worst part. UNTIL that is in place, and maybe not even after, I can't be around her. So because I'm the adult and she's the minor they can't force her out and so I have to leave. Wow. How shit. So because I'm an "adult" I have to move out. I had planned to...but not OMG RIGHT NOW!!!!! you know? I have nowhere to go...no plans. Now here's the thing...when the original charges sounded worse when they first told us my parents immediatly backed me up and defended me and when we were waiting they were talking about letting ME stay and her getting the fuck out cuz of her problems recently. Stating mom: "at least you are doing something with your life - college, work and helping make the family better when she's just going through her shit now." They'd rather HER leave than me but they don't want either of us to leave, but apparently it's not our call.
And my sister WANTED to leave. For 2 years she's been hardcore pushing leaving the family cuz she hates us all and can't take it. Wants to emancipate herself. My parents were like 'well she wants it, let her' she's beyond help...so don't go tellin me my parents suck for sayin that. You have no idea. Anyway...so lucky us she had a friend's house to go to and she's been there since then (which was last Wednesday)and she was supposed to come home tonight but got another night. Well DYFS was supposed to come over today and discuss what's going on and find out that I'm leaving eventually..but they didn't and my sister got another night so it reall helps me out.
Basically if I HAVE to (even with their shit services in place) my parents said they'd take me to a hotel a few nights and be with me and maybe if we HAVE to, go to my grandparents but we don't wanna burden them and I don't wanna face the questions cuz I don't wanna explain what happened to her...and the other choice is the farm...but the only problem with that is, I'll be so secluded with NO technology for who knows how long.
So if we all go to therapy, get everything in motion...we MIGHT not have to move out, away from eachother etc and things can be SEMI normal (with me not being forced to move out) but who knows.
So yah...life's shit right now. I don't know what to do anymore.
PS My sister apparently had been planning this for awhile. The first time she brought it up was last year a little after Rodney (my old best friend) had been kicked out of our house when we found out what he was doing with my sister and the rules he wasn't following. So being that she had nothing on me, she went digging for it and told my parents then and dyfs....which I found out later was why they asked me some questions throughout the year (not about that though)...and again this time when I pissed her off she wanted something so used that again and told a teacher.
Now...that night we were at the police station she claimed she didn't know it would blow up to this and didn't want it to and felt bad for me etc. And I'm thinkin...BULLSHIT! What would you expect when you tell a teacher something like that...how could you NOT know the consequences. So whatever. Some small part of me after all that still holds love for her, but I don't think I can ever face her again the same or even talk to her or forgive her. Just...a shock...this has ruined everything. Everything.
So that's it...the story of my life. Falsely accused of something...get the shit for it.