so the latest convo. between zain and i thats got me so down....

[deathmetal_god]

I said:

well its more of a thought in my head how people would picture things if we did go back out this soon. they would think either i was desperate or you wanted a re-bound girlfriend...and i know i should care what people think...but unfortunatly i do.

i wasnt offended by her comment, but it was kinda embarassing to me a little bit..oh well.

plus alex was kinda talking for you today cause he said "zain likes you, just not in that way" which if you didnt, i would hope you wouldnt worry about hurting my feelings and tell me and i believe you would tell me so i kinda blew it off..but like i said...oh well

He said:

well its true i do love

just its more of a gained love

i dont treat you like my lover
i treat you more like my sister who i could always connect with

then i said:

oh dont say the whole sister thing...not what i wanted to hear... oh well... i tried

and he finally said:

i know thats not what you wanted to hear

but i wouldnt lie to you

thats why we broke up in the first place

i didnt want to lie to you then

and i dont want to lie to you now

why do boys do these things....im truly hurt now...i really dont even want to hang out with him anymore