Does it all simply end, in a blanket of darkness?
So my buddy was gonna let me borrow his motorcycle today and me and dean were going to go riding today cuz all day it really wasnt to bad a lil sprinkle and then nothing for like 2 hrs but sure enough right when i get out of work it decides its going to rain hard and stay that way, fuck. He was gonna still let me take the bike but it was raining to much so we didnt go. He said to call him tomorrow so hopefully it isnt to bad out after work. works been gettin better they been givin me more work and shit but my manager and owners daught are still teamed up and still hate me and the owner still dont like me to much so we shall see how this goes haha. I keep changing my mind but ive realzied im going to keep my car for the winter. It would be a very dumb decision to get rid of it considering where we live and that fact that its prob goin to be a bad winter. She broke down the other day and i was on the side of the road in raynham for 2 fucking hrs waiting for AAA two cops passed me and looked at me and drove away lol.Prob a good thing considering its not registered. Im going to start taking NO2 in october so that should help me alot with my muscle gain and then maybe ill be able to be happy with how i look and how im progressing. I know i dont look horrible but i still feel that way and i just know i can look better. i dont think ill ever be happy lol. Im going down to see my rents in Jan. They wanted it to be in Dec but i said hell no it has to be Jan cuz i wanna get drunk on the way down and be able to go out with them and drink lol. peace