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can i just say one thing to everybody???? i am sorry that i fuck everything up, that i cannot make everybody happy, that i am not the best person around ever, that i am not cute or even liked by anybody, i am sorry that you all have to put up w/ me, and that i am such a pain in the ass, that all that i seem to be able to do is hurt people and piss them off, but when they hurt me, they feel bad but don;t really stop to think about it, i would like you all to know that i love you, and when i screw up, i am truly sorry, and i feel bad for all the shit that i have done to people throughout my lifetime, i am sorry that i get depressed or upset, and i am sorry that i cannot express myself fully to anybody ever, it comes from being used one too many times by the people i loved the most, and i am sorry that when i do try to be the person that you want, you stop loving me, i cannot do anything right apparently. i think i'm gonna go now, i wish that i could do more for people, and trying only makes me realize that i am more of a failure b/c i seem to screw everything up. so i will one day die alone and all that people will be able to say aobut me is that i managed to piss them off. hope you all have fun, and maybe later i will be able to make you happy.