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phil told me that he likes me last night. i told him the truth, that i care about him too much to date him right now b/c it wouldn't be far to him since i still have feelings for hunter. i am having some trouble dealing w/ this break up for many personal reasons and i am exhausted... woke up from a dream about hunter crying this morning, i hate this feeling. i wanna talk to him, but i don't think that it would do any good. i can barely eat, sleep is a forced thing, and i hate myself for all the same old reasons again. my chest hurts b/c i cut it again, and i can;t stand to look at myself in the mirror. tired. gotta go to work.