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ell.. this is my online journal.. and i can use it for w/e i want.. this is where i rant and rave so dont get pissed off cuz this is where i let my thoughts out.. anyways im in one of the worst moods ive ever been in in my entire life.. I was talking with one of my EX-friends and i was explaining to him the whole me and jenni thing. Then he goes off in this FUCKING RANT AND RAVE.. telling me that I complain too much and all i try to do is Impress people and everything i say is a lie and all this different shit. Okay let me branch this off into sections in a moment..
There is something yall should know about me.. I keep alot of things to myself.. And i mean alot.. I dont tell people things enless i feel comfortable in telling them.. Period. Im not one to go off and make up lies to impress people.. I DONT want to impress anyone at all.. I just want to get through highschool and make something of myself.. I could really care less about what people think of me..
1)Complaining-- You know.. We all complain about something or another at some point and time.. but the way he put it he was saying i was complaining excessively. Which is highly doubtful because i barely even talk.. period. and yes there is alot of stuff in my life to complain about but i prefer to keep it in..
2) Impressing people- Well this statement is bs.. becuz i dont try to impress anyone.. Im jus' myself and i dont want people to like me or think im cool or w/e.. I jus want to be left alone and have very few friends.. I like small groups better.. You know i didnt ask for friends that i would care so much about that it hurt.. I didnt ask for friends period.. but i got them..
3)Lieing- There is many things he brought up about me lieing about.. He thinks that I was lieing about my empathy, telepathy, succubus, and multiple personalities.. Okay 1. I have empathy and i know i do.. I feel what other people feel regardless.. if someone is sad and they have on the happiest face.. i can feel that they are sad and i ask them whats wrong.. i just feel it.. i dont know how to explain its been developing since 7th grade.. no i just didnt all of a sudden "Develop" it.. 2. I dont have telepathy but I thought i did.. That only because i was hearing voices in my head and i thought it was other peoples thoughts when it actually turned out to be my multiple personalities. which leads into number 4 here in a moment. 3. Succubus- i never said that i was a succubus.. HE was the one that brought it up becuz i was telling him symptoms and stuff that was happening.. and as far i as that goes.. i do believe i couldve been a succubus at one time.. I am not anymore becuz im pretty sure i got rid of it.. i know how but its really hard to explain.. lets just say.. Power praying.. and if you helped me you know what im talking about.. 4. Multiple personalities- i have also been developing this since 7th grade so i didnt all of a sudden "develop" them.. ive been hearing voices in my head faintly since 7th grade but i thought it was telepathy not mpd.. Then my friend britanie started explaining the symptoms and everything to me since her mom (my aunt) has them and she needed someone to talk to.. It was then that i started to relize that whoa.. this aint telepathy.. and not alot of you know my past.. and the stuff ive gone through and everything that caused this.. you have no idea what is going on in my head.. so dont even try..
Now that feels better.. Im sorry.. Dont fuck with me.. im not in the mood. Period.
There is something yall should know about me.. I keep alot of things to myself.. And i mean alot.. I dont tell people things enless i feel comfortable in telling them.. Period. Im not one to go off and make up lies to impress people.. I DONT want to impress anyone at all.. I just want to get through highschool and make something of myself.. I could really care less about what people think of me..
1)Complaining-- You know.. We all complain about something or another at some point and time.. but the way he put it he was saying i was complaining excessively. Which is highly doubtful because i barely even talk.. period. and yes there is alot of stuff in my life to complain about but i prefer to keep it in..
2) Impressing people- Well this statement is bs.. becuz i dont try to impress anyone.. Im jus' myself and i dont want people to like me or think im cool or w/e.. I jus want to be left alone and have very few friends.. I like small groups better.. You know i didnt ask for friends that i would care so much about that it hurt.. I didnt ask for friends period.. but i got them..
3)Lieing- There is many things he brought up about me lieing about.. He thinks that I was lieing about my empathy, telepathy, succubus, and multiple personalities.. Okay 1. I have empathy and i know i do.. I feel what other people feel regardless.. if someone is sad and they have on the happiest face.. i can feel that they are sad and i ask them whats wrong.. i just feel it.. i dont know how to explain its been developing since 7th grade.. no i just didnt all of a sudden "Develop" it.. 2. I dont have telepathy but I thought i did.. That only because i was hearing voices in my head and i thought it was other peoples thoughts when it actually turned out to be my multiple personalities. which leads into number 4 here in a moment. 3. Succubus- i never said that i was a succubus.. HE was the one that brought it up becuz i was telling him symptoms and stuff that was happening.. and as far i as that goes.. i do believe i couldve been a succubus at one time.. I am not anymore becuz im pretty sure i got rid of it.. i know how but its really hard to explain.. lets just say.. Power praying.. and if you helped me you know what im talking about.. 4. Multiple personalities- i have also been developing this since 7th grade so i didnt all of a sudden "develop" them.. ive been hearing voices in my head faintly since 7th grade but i thought it was telepathy not mpd.. Then my friend britanie started explaining the symptoms and everything to me since her mom (my aunt) has them and she needed someone to talk to.. It was then that i started to relize that whoa.. this aint telepathy.. and not alot of you know my past.. and the stuff ive gone through and everything that caused this.. you have no idea what is going on in my head.. so dont even try..
Now that feels better.. Im sorry.. Dont fuck with me.. im not in the mood. Period.