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Apr 29, 2007 16:10

I hate this picture I have on here, I don't know why I put it on considering there were so many better pictures taken that day... I mean, it's a good picture but I don't look good. My hair is ugly in it.
I've been outside shooting baskets and listening to the Who and the WRIF... Nice day. I'm totally roasting though. I don't know. I feel all right but I need more motivation. I'm useless without caffeine and a energy booster pill... I don't want to be dependent on them anymore but it's hard cuz I need something to counteract my Seroquel which I don't want to be on either but I cannot sleep without it. I'm totally dependent on it.
I haven't been hitting meetings, but I really should. They really do help. I just don't want to have to ask my Daddy to drop me off and pick me up every time I need to go. So yeah.
But the more I don't use, the better I feel... I know, duh, right? But to an addict we try to rationalize not responding to the "duh". But yeah. Home is all right. I have no reason to claim boredom because there really are a million things I could be doing, I just need to motivation and drive to do them... ENERGY!!!! That's what I'm craving, I really want to be able to accomplish everything I know I should as well as everything I want. And I'm out of Hydroxycut... Hah.
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