FOOTBALL
Okay... So I'm totally into football for some reason. It's cool. Ohio State is doing awesome... That's sweet... I wanna go down to Columbus to see the Ohio State/Michigan game in November so I need to hurry up and pay my tickets so I can drive. Mini-road trip. I really want to go and I don't know ANYONE that would even want to go to a football game here, let alone having to drive to see one...
Matt decided he needed to go date/fall in love with/who the hell know what with a ex-stripper bitch. Why he decided to call and tell me, I do not know. The last thing I want to hear is that he has gotten over me, because a part of me will probably never be over him. I just cannot be his friend at all if he is seeing someone... And I know that makes me a total hypocrite, considering that I've dated plenty of guys since him and I have broken up and he has stayed friends with me, but I'm not him and I just can't handle it. I don't tell him when I go on a date or anything because why would he want to hear that? So why would he tell me that this nasty ho could "be the one" and if they date they are going to be together "for a long time". He told me he didn't really even think she was pretty... Matt's pretty hot, he could get a really good girl, but he settles for pieces of shit and that really pisses me off. He deserves better but why the hell doesn't he go after it??? I'm not saying I'm all that, because I know I'm not, but when you first meet a guy you like, the first thing you say to him is "I used to be a stripper"... NO. That's not what you say. Uhhh!
This has totally screwed with my serenity even more. And that is not okay with me. I don't know why, but it seems like a bunch of crap has just been set before me to deal with... And I don't know if I can handle it properly... I'm trying very hard to use faith and trust but sometimes it gets difficult. But I spoke with my sponsor and my grand sponsor and my great grand sponsor about it and I feel a little better than I did yesterday but I still am just not right.
Yeah... So there. Sucks. But I do have faith that it will get better.
Matt decided he needed to go date/fall in love with/who the hell know what with a ex-stripper bitch. Why he decided to call and tell me, I do not know. The last thing I want to hear is that he has gotten over me, because a part of me will probably never be over him. I just cannot be his friend at all if he is seeing someone... And I know that makes me a total hypocrite, considering that I've dated plenty of guys since him and I have broken up and he has stayed friends with me, but I'm not him and I just can't handle it. I don't tell him when I go on a date or anything because why would he want to hear that? So why would he tell me that this nasty ho could "be the one" and if they date they are going to be together "for a long time". He told me he didn't really even think she was pretty... Matt's pretty hot, he could get a really good girl, but he settles for pieces of shit and that really pisses me off. He deserves better but why the hell doesn't he go after it??? I'm not saying I'm all that, because I know I'm not, but when you first meet a guy you like, the first thing you say to him is "I used to be a stripper"... NO. That's not what you say. Uhhh!
This has totally screwed with my serenity even more. And that is not okay with me. I don't know why, but it seems like a bunch of crap has just been set before me to deal with... And I don't know if I can handle it properly... I'm trying very hard to use faith and trust but sometimes it gets difficult. But I spoke with my sponsor and my grand sponsor and my great grand sponsor about it and I feel a little better than I did yesterday but I still am just not right.
Yeah... So there. Sucks. But I do have faith that it will get better.