build me an ocean and destroy it with your eyes
drove around all damn day lookin for a job. only appled 3 places though. fuckers, no one's hiring. some fuckin chick at an eckerd looked at me and told me that she didn't HAVE any applications in the store. i was like what the fuck lady. people suck. it's true. fuck this. i'm tired. just waiting for matt to get online so i can see what's up for tomorrow. i miss my friends so much=( i can't wait to see him, and kat and ashley. it's really ridiculous how lonliness can just all of the sudden overcome your body with sorrow in an instant. it gets better when i see a friend..but what i really need is actual physical contact. i don't mean to sound like a skank, but that's what i need. fuck medicine, fuck doctors. i'm tired of being told that i'm going to meet someone, that i'm sooo cool, how could people not love me?!! blahblahblah all that shit you know. annnnnd when exactly is this going to happen? just...anyone? i don't give a shit if i won't know them in 2 years, i just need someone now. none of my current friends can fufill that need of mine. i can tell that in 10 years, i probably won't be GOOD friends with my friends that i have now. not saying i'm going to ditch them all permanently, or that it'll happen soon- but i'm just being practical. i've had enough of this 'we'll always be friends' and 'never forget me' shit. i won't forget my best friends. even my ex-friends i remember all the fun things we used to do. and i'm tired of empty apologies too. and empty promises, bitching, complaining, excuses, lies, CENSORING MY OWN GOD DAMN LANGUAGE etc....i'm done. i'm fucking done with it all.
don't comment or even talk to me if it's just to apologize about what you've done. i'm saying all this in a general sense, not much is personal so just chill out. thanks.
don't comment or even talk to me if it's just to apologize about what you've done. i'm saying all this in a general sense, not much is personal so just chill out. thanks.