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[deathjubilee]

a big big big piece is missing
and now theres this gaping hole
and when i wake up its all i feel

i thought i had experienced broken hearts before
because of relationships ending
but nothing in my life ever even
resembled this breaking

i am undergoing rapid transition
every day is a struggle to keep myself
in some kind of control of its direction

i guess i feel the worst because my brothers and sister
have to go through this
my mother's body was still capable of life
thats what makes it so hard

therapy today
theres almost too much to explain
unexplainable explanations
but i guess its all i got