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what's the point...
...of life?
...of happiness?
...of anger?
...of anything anymore?
my mother and i got into yet another fight on the way to her dropping me off at class this morning - the class in which i am not in right now...
i called her in the counselor's office and apologized without even saying hello first to her...
she didn't accept it...
instead, she brought up the fact of all of what i said and did and then, when i tried to say but it wasn't just me, mum, you did this too.
she said :
"i knew you weren't really sorry.
don't talk to me.
good-bye."
and hung up with that.
i cried - again...
i just wish i could be a normal girl with a normal family and a normal life - the life i never had in the first place...
i was always
the disappointment.
the wrong one.
the outcast.
a failure.
when will i be
the star?
able to fit in?
the achievement?
the successful one?
the one to be proud of?
i'm sick of just being
A Girl...
i just want to be
The Girl...
i want to be someone, not just anyone...
i want to be...
M - E...