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[deathisbecoming]

why is it that every year on this fatefully horrible day something bad always happens? every year on my birthday i always have the shittiest of days? why cant i for one fucking year have a good day?? why?!? i always end up in an argument of some sort that makes me pissed off or cry? or have i never had anyone of my friends care or even remember? or everyone just forgets all together like last year.... (including my parents) i dont ask for much. just a good day where noone argues or fights.... noone hurts my feelings and makes me cry, noone forgets, without me or someone having to remind them or where something bad always happens. one year on this day is all i ask! one! i dont ask for people to buy me things or treat me special in anyway.i just want to not have a shittiest of shitty days not happen. like today for instence.... i got into four, well actually five now including the one just got into with ssg oates over something so fucking petty its ridiculous.... and one of those includes me arguing with ryan which makes it even worse for me.... one of my friends just about died today and is in the ICU right now prolly, i got bitched at for actually doing my job but b/c i wasnt looking 'gainfully employed' i had to do some stupid bullshit that the lazy ass cpt i work with didnt feel like doing and then i got yelled at by my NCO on shift with me b/c i wasnt doing my job b/c cpt gieger tasked me out for that stupid shit he didnt feel like doing, in which i got yelled at for not knowing what i had to do exactly and how to do it b/c its not my MOS and i wasnt trained on it. im pissed off, my feelings have been hurt yet again and something bad happend to a good friend of mine. so all in all my 21st birthday along with all my other birthdays have yet again managed to suck.... oh and did i mention im in iraq for my 21st birthday?? yeah i forgot that.... ive concluded....

my birthday = a shitty day that i refuse to celebrate anymore.

the end.