I know it's been awhile
Well ok update on what's been going on...Ok so about maybe 2 months ago around Valentines day I know this guy named Jerry, thought he was cool but Because of Sean (Calvin's old roommate) begged Bekki to not tell me he was a jerk and an asshole. Yeah so it was a big mistake, I honestly don't miss the guy, and soon shall be just someone that I knew but forgot about.
As for Sean and Bekki, just a bigger mistake almost like mine and Jerry's but with word fighting. Me, I just asked the guy whats up and left it at that. Don't know Sean's lazy about everything even when it comes to girls. So I don't know what will be going on with Auto-X. Most likely we'll go just to support Joey, Lee, Brian, and Adam. Childish it may sound but it's not worth my time.
Ne way then this friend and I had a fall out. He wants to love me but he just got mad one day cause I'm so busy with things. NE way it hurt me that he told me to forget about him...and I'm sitting there wondering if he's saying that so I can say "oh no I don't want to do that", or just to take him serious and actually forget...I don't know
Then my group of friends are no longer friends with eachother, it makes me feel like my head is about to pop off and roll. It makes me sad that they won't try more, think I could lock them in a room together? or put them on an island? I just hope one day it gets resolved.
And so here I am now killing time cause I have an audition for the drama scholarship. While I think about things right now...I do sorta miss being around someone, I think what could make me feel right about anything at the moment is just laying next to them, and for once taking a rest. My mind body and soul rest. It just feels like I've been running around making things better. But I can't help everyone. I'm just a very low self-esteem girl that just tries to go with the flow. I would like someone to prove me wrong about what I think about people, and to help me learn and grow more...is that someone there?
As for Sean and Bekki, just a bigger mistake almost like mine and Jerry's but with word fighting. Me, I just asked the guy whats up and left it at that. Don't know Sean's lazy about everything even when it comes to girls. So I don't know what will be going on with Auto-X. Most likely we'll go just to support Joey, Lee, Brian, and Adam. Childish it may sound but it's not worth my time.
Ne way then this friend and I had a fall out. He wants to love me but he just got mad one day cause I'm so busy with things. NE way it hurt me that he told me to forget about him...and I'm sitting there wondering if he's saying that so I can say "oh no I don't want to do that", or just to take him serious and actually forget...I don't know
Then my group of friends are no longer friends with eachother, it makes me feel like my head is about to pop off and roll. It makes me sad that they won't try more, think I could lock them in a room together? or put them on an island? I just hope one day it gets resolved.
And so here I am now killing time cause I have an audition for the drama scholarship. While I think about things right now...I do sorta miss being around someone, I think what could make me feel right about anything at the moment is just laying next to them, and for once taking a rest. My mind body and soul rest. It just feels like I've been running around making things better. But I can't help everyone. I'm just a very low self-esteem girl that just tries to go with the flow. I would like someone to prove me wrong about what I think about people, and to help me learn and grow more...is that someone there?