Not alone
I broke down, and I'm not exactly ok with it. I don't know what happen, maybe I just felt it all on me. I just couldn't hold it in. The things going on with my family. Being stuck here just brought alot in that I couldn't bottle it or contain it. I just started crying, I had no real reason for it. I just laying on the bed crying, and feeling this empty feeling in the pit of my throat. I called people seeing what they were up to trying to calm myself. In the end I just blah, I don't know why it happen unless I just couldn't hold anymore.
I don't like feeling this way, anymore than the next person. I think I speak for everyone when they don't like to feel lost in their thoughts and emotions. To have no reason to get these ..I don't know.
Maybe at this moment I need to try to focus more on school and what I need to do right now, and take a break when I need to which is thanksgiving and X-mas. Just try harder, and stay focus, forget the stupid things that can wait, just now.
think i'm feeling abit better, I just wish I wasn't alone out here.
I don't like feeling this way, anymore than the next person. I think I speak for everyone when they don't like to feel lost in their thoughts and emotions. To have no reason to get these ..I don't know.
Maybe at this moment I need to try to focus more on school and what I need to do right now, and take a break when I need to which is thanksgiving and X-mas. Just try harder, and stay focus, forget the stupid things that can wait, just now.
think i'm feeling abit better, I just wish I wasn't alone out here.