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09/03/07 Accessory
The nuance is very important.
Well today I moved around a lot.
It's aggressive.
It's a new weapon.
It's roaring.
I'm tired.
I'm going to bed.
09/03/07 I am a child of the sea
That's a lie.
Since September began I've been busy with this and that.
I'm struggling to buy a new drum machine.
But compared to older machines they're not as good now.
Why is it digital AND analog?!
Ah well that's that.
Right now I'm limited to making recordings but it's fun.
Even though I'm this tired.
It seems like my monitor's about to break.
I understand that feeling.
Today for the first time in a blue moon I ate that demon food, ice cream.
It was sweet.*
Soon I'm going to try to return to reality.
Muscle buffet.
* Ai doesn't like sweet things, he likes spicy food.
09/07/07 Worrying now
I'm so worried I don't know if I should call an ambulance or go to the hospital myself, or put up with this pain and sleep.
This terrible pain is attacking me from my throat to my lungs.
My stomach and my back hurt, too.
Right around my duodenum hurts the most.
This and this hurt very much.
I definitely have an ulcer in my duodenum.
I quickly looked up the symptoms, and they're pretty similar.
I probably, definitely should go to the hospital.
But that camera they stick in your stomach is scary and I don't want to go.
They're definitely make me swallow it.
They'll really do it.
Right now I can put up with it but if it gets worse I'll give in.
But it really hurts.
No matter how long I've been up I can't take a breath.
Rather, I can't do anything at all.
'Hey you, stop writing in your blog and go to the hospital now!' thought someone.
That's exactly right.
I'm fine.
If I become unable to smoke I'll go.
I wonder if I sleep will it go away?
But even in sleep I have these awful pains.
Well please pray for my safety.
I'll be able to manage somehow, maybe.
It really hurts to the point of fear.