Im Over It.
I was thinking a lot last night.
and i really need to do something with my life.
honestly.
I haven't accomplished anything.
But Im excited for tonight.
i get to see Miiiike and Steven.
it's going to be amazing.
<3
I think on sunday Im going to take a dredfull drive o windsor.
and got to room number 6 and apologize.
I have to work up a lot of courage to do what Im going to do.
without breaking down.
without yelling.
without any feelings.
Im so tired of not having a mom..Im so tired of having this empty hole in me.
but then again don't want to see her like that.
and don't know if i physiclly can..
Im scared I will have an overload of emotions and I wouldn't be able to look at her.
it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that she is doing this to herself.
she is so much better then this.
atleast I hope.
jesus.
I don't even know my own mother.
and i really need to do something with my life.
honestly.
I haven't accomplished anything.
But Im excited for tonight.
i get to see Miiiike and Steven.
it's going to be amazing.
<3
I think on sunday Im going to take a dredfull drive o windsor.
and got to room number 6 and apologize.
I have to work up a lot of courage to do what Im going to do.
without breaking down.
without yelling.
without any feelings.
Im so tired of not having a mom..Im so tired of having this empty hole in me.
but then again don't want to see her like that.
and don't know if i physiclly can..
Im scared I will have an overload of emotions and I wouldn't be able to look at her.
it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that she is doing this to herself.
she is so much better then this.
atleast I hope.
jesus.
I don't even know my own mother.