Garden State...
I know, such an unoriginal title....but I'm sleepy.
So Charlotte, Kimothy, and I embarked tonight on a mission of the utmost importance. We were to see my future wife, and my new role model in the film 'Garden State'. (Natalie Portman being the wife, Zach Braff being the role model.) I have to say, I walked out of that theater, feeling numb. In a good way. Half of my deepest thoughts were dialogue in that movie, and I felt SO similar to Zach Braff's character in the movie. And Natalie Portman was adorable. I don't think you understand, I fell in love with her. (I feel like such a stalker, but that is exactly the truth. I am in love with what I can't have, as usual.) What is it with humans doing the stupidest things in the world? We love what we can't have, we strive to acheive the impossible, we try things that taste/smell/look horrible... We're such a weird species.
So after a really long break of chatting on the phone with Charlotte, I'm sitting in front of my little white laptop again, listening to a mix that I've titled "If My Life Was A Movie... (This Would Be The Soundtrack)". I was talking to Brian about Garden State, and how I want to write (and finish, for once) a story. We mentioned writing my life's story. But I honestly think that would be narcissistic and it would seem like a cry for help. But my life is the one story I know everything about.
Something someone said to me recently has made me question everything. Am I really cut out for all of this? Am I really meant to write and act? I don't think I am...Nothing's proven that so far. It's not like I'm some prodigy actress, and my writing finally reached the light outside of my journal, and was shot down immediately by my grandmother. (Honestly, why would my poem about a piano sound like a massive orgy??)
I feel so lost. And we're just about to start our senior year, and I am stuck wishing every night that I had a Time Turner, and that I could use it to change the path I took for my education. I would've had more options. I would feel safer. I would feel like the place I am at now is the place I should really be in.
Oh this is so confusing. My life's kinda unstable right now. I'm not ready for all of this.
So Charlotte, Kimothy, and I embarked tonight on a mission of the utmost importance. We were to see my future wife, and my new role model in the film 'Garden State'. (Natalie Portman being the wife, Zach Braff being the role model.) I have to say, I walked out of that theater, feeling numb. In a good way. Half of my deepest thoughts were dialogue in that movie, and I felt SO similar to Zach Braff's character in the movie. And Natalie Portman was adorable. I don't think you understand, I fell in love with her. (I feel like such a stalker, but that is exactly the truth. I am in love with what I can't have, as usual.) What is it with humans doing the stupidest things in the world? We love what we can't have, we strive to acheive the impossible, we try things that taste/smell/look horrible... We're such a weird species.
So after a really long break of chatting on the phone with Charlotte, I'm sitting in front of my little white laptop again, listening to a mix that I've titled "If My Life Was A Movie... (This Would Be The Soundtrack)". I was talking to Brian about Garden State, and how I want to write (and finish, for once) a story. We mentioned writing my life's story. But I honestly think that would be narcissistic and it would seem like a cry for help. But my life is the one story I know everything about.
Something someone said to me recently has made me question everything. Am I really cut out for all of this? Am I really meant to write and act? I don't think I am...Nothing's proven that so far. It's not like I'm some prodigy actress, and my writing finally reached the light outside of my journal, and was shot down immediately by my grandmother. (Honestly, why would my poem about a piano sound like a massive orgy??)
I feel so lost. And we're just about to start our senior year, and I am stuck wishing every night that I had a Time Turner, and that I could use it to change the path I took for my education. I would've had more options. I would feel safer. I would feel like the place I am at now is the place I should really be in.
Oh this is so confusing. My life's kinda unstable right now. I'm not ready for all of this.