And I'm Calling All Angels...
I'm not really sure how I feel right now. So thusly, I am blank.
Woke up this morning, and there were absolutely no thoughts on my mind. I don't think I've ever had that happen to me before. I know it's weird that I happen to be focusing on something like this....but it's just unnerving for me.
And I then spent about 2 hours catering to my mother for no reason at all. Also unnerving, after the way she's talked to me recently. She then tells me we're getting her lunch, and I'm running in since she feels like crap. Which means I can get myself food, so it's all good...
But I run in and she's on the phone. She has been for practically 45 minutes now...discussing Carousel crap. Neither my sister or I go to the studio anymore, but she still follows the gossip? Obviously phone gossip is more filling for her than food.
I pray to whatever there is out there that I won't end up like her. I hope my grandma is wrong, that I'm not just like her. I don't want to be like her. Ever.
On another note...finals starts tuesday. The school year is almost done. In 4 days, my friends that I hold dear are graduating, and I'll be a senior. Am I ready for this??
Woke up this morning, and there were absolutely no thoughts on my mind. I don't think I've ever had that happen to me before. I know it's weird that I happen to be focusing on something like this....but it's just unnerving for me.
And I then spent about 2 hours catering to my mother for no reason at all. Also unnerving, after the way she's talked to me recently. She then tells me we're getting her lunch, and I'm running in since she feels like crap. Which means I can get myself food, so it's all good...
But I run in and she's on the phone. She has been for practically 45 minutes now...discussing Carousel crap. Neither my sister or I go to the studio anymore, but she still follows the gossip? Obviously phone gossip is more filling for her than food.
I pray to whatever there is out there that I won't end up like her. I hope my grandma is wrong, that I'm not just like her. I don't want to be like her. Ever.
On another note...finals starts tuesday. The school year is almost done. In 4 days, my friends that I hold dear are graduating, and I'll be a senior. Am I ready for this??