Generally a good day...
So content right now. Life has just been good. Yeah, there's still bad shit and annoying shit that happens, but as the infamous Chris Lee says: "It's all good, baby." I can't believe how happy I am from a day-to-day basis. I know this is just coming after my "Where Am I Going?" schpiel...but honestly, no matter what badness my mind thinks everyday, I'm still in an overall good mood. And for that I am SO grateful.
But here's another thing I was thinking about today as my mom was driving me home...
We passed an abundance of elderly people on our ride home...And I saw how terribly dependent they were on the younger generation. Now if you know me well, you know my biggest fear is being so old I have to become a burden to others and to myself. So I really hate to bring this part of my fear up...because I always get annoying "Jenn we love you" comments after it. I mean, I love you all too, and attention is certainly nice...But that's not what I need at the moment, so BACK OFF. ;)
I'm not going to live to be that old. Not like I've got a cancer or something. I just plan on dying around 50 or 55. Whether it's suicide or accidentally walking in front of a car or something of that nature, I'm not going to have my last memories of life on Earth be limited and restricted because my body can't keep up with my mind. I've seen how my grandmother is treated, and she's only 72. My mother treats her as if she's senile and ancient and incompetent. My grandmother, if you've met her, is the best person I know. She's witty, sarcastic, and knowledgable. She's still got a keen mind, but nobody realizes it because of her age.
I will NOT let that happen to me. Ever.
Thank you.
And on a lighter note, I'd like to mention that Hill and I are on the same brainwave...I just finished watching Cinderella, and she's watching it now. OH YES.
But here's another thing I was thinking about today as my mom was driving me home...
We passed an abundance of elderly people on our ride home...And I saw how terribly dependent they were on the younger generation. Now if you know me well, you know my biggest fear is being so old I have to become a burden to others and to myself. So I really hate to bring this part of my fear up...because I always get annoying "Jenn we love you" comments after it. I mean, I love you all too, and attention is certainly nice...But that's not what I need at the moment, so BACK OFF. ;)
I'm not going to live to be that old. Not like I've got a cancer or something. I just plan on dying around 50 or 55. Whether it's suicide or accidentally walking in front of a car or something of that nature, I'm not going to have my last memories of life on Earth be limited and restricted because my body can't keep up with my mind. I've seen how my grandmother is treated, and she's only 72. My mother treats her as if she's senile and ancient and incompetent. My grandmother, if you've met her, is the best person I know. She's witty, sarcastic, and knowledgable. She's still got a keen mind, but nobody realizes it because of her age.
I will NOT let that happen to me. Ever.
Thank you.
And on a lighter note, I'd like to mention that Hill and I are on the same brainwave...I just finished watching Cinderella, and she's watching it now. OH YES.