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totes. you need your sleep-until-rested-and-wake-naturally. without it sucks. By habit, and random-society avoidance, I would become entirely nocturnal. instead I make myself be awake for much of the day.. but I don't get as much done as I should. I'm in gimp-mode, tho picking up speed, I think.. it's hard to tell while in kdjfposnhfh, because I've never had a real plan while here other than leaving here. I've been telling myself for a long time, and ok telling others too- which is why I made myself tell you, that I think it's easy to go crazy here _because_ I need to keep hearing myself say it to better remain self-aware. ..and avoid becoming actually wackadoodle. I should probably build a portable house of my own invention, or see if I can fit everything that I think I need in life into a trailer. The problem is that a large part of what I need is access to the other things I need, from where I am. Just one space, large enough, warm enough, private enough, sunlit enough, LED-lit enough, starry sky accessible enough, clean air, quiet enough. Enough is enough. Oh, and then there is baggage, but I have gloriously good baggages- this means I need a larger room with enough space for small biosystems, to live examine communicate photograph learn from and with small creatures & plants -which grow of curse, they grow. I used to be comfortable living almost just on the road, stopping everywhere, exploring, sometimes living for awhile in apartments.. I guess that's life. But I wasn't creating so much while moving. I drew, played guitar, photo'd..and I still have much of my photography, of many lifetimes. Life continues again and again however. I think I'm forcing my brain to reconnect with my past as if it's linear. Normally, I'm reinventing my self with every day. I need beauty in my life. Going bonkers here