Just when I thought it was going good
It's funny that as soon as I make this huge, important revelation, everything changes. And I don't mean the new perspective sheds light on things, I mean the universe has really bad timing.
Like, I finally decide on something, and then the opportunity is gone, except that it has nothing to do with opportunities.
I don't know, but it makes me feel like lots and lots of crap. Buckets, even.
Edit: It's like, I've been given what I've wanted all along, but now that I've finally learned how to ask for myself, I'm being deprived. I don't understand.
I'm on the verge of tears, and despite how big of a baby I am, I really -don't- cry that often out of only sorrow. (I cry when I'm angry) But this upsets me so much, probably because it all went weird just when I thought I had it figured out and it would all be awesome, and because I have no idea what's going on or how to fix it.
I need some help, but I don't know who to talk to; I love lots of people and trust them enough to confide in them, but for some reason I can't.
Gaah, I can't even explain how much I hate being this emotional.
Like, I finally decide on something, and then the opportunity is gone, except that it has nothing to do with opportunities.
I don't know, but it makes me feel like lots and lots of crap. Buckets, even.
Edit: It's like, I've been given what I've wanted all along, but now that I've finally learned how to ask for myself, I'm being deprived. I don't understand.
I'm on the verge of tears, and despite how big of a baby I am, I really -don't- cry that often out of only sorrow. (I cry when I'm angry) But this upsets me so much, probably because it all went weird just when I thought I had it figured out and it would all be awesome, and because I have no idea what's going on or how to fix it.
I need some help, but I don't know who to talk to; I love lots of people and trust them enough to confide in them, but for some reason I can't.
Gaah, I can't even explain how much I hate being this emotional.