my brother
its a miracle i was able to type my password in. but i needed to say this tonite before i forgot it all in the morning. i love my older brother fritz. he is pure joy, bliss, and happiness. i adore him. he envelopes all the characteristics of a wonderful person. so its saturday night and i had nothing to do and he took me to the mall with him and i hung out with him and his girlfriend chan. it was really swell. i love him. he makes people feel happy, and good to be themselves, never putting other people down. never. i almost cried because i love him so much.
we were driving in the car listening to aphex twins and he was like "this is perfect movie music" and i was like "yea it is its the music to your movie." hes like "my movie?" im like "the movie." and he says and "the perfect music for us to be driving down the road and ironically hit a deer." then he started driving really, really fast. he laughed and said just kidding. thats what i love about him, i wouldnt have added on that part about "just kidding." he made me feel so happy. because he doesnt end things with a sour sarcastic note. he adds a funny comment and laughs it all away. i wish i could do that. he draws people towards him, i saw it tonite, with my own two eyes. people really like him, and it actually is him not some act he puts on, i dont get how he does it but hes just always so damn happy and it made me happy to know that someone out there is actually happy and the fact that im related blows my mind, maybe theres a small fraction of him in me, you know, the happy bouncy quality he has.
im going to miss him when he moves away. i always knew hed be there for me. and next year he might go to GA i will cry so much. i would take a bullet for him, id ask the devil or anyone to take me instead of him because i know that he is so good and this world needs him and he can do so much for it. i dont like the way im talking it makes me sad cause i feel as if im referring to my brother: the sick boy in the hospital with cancer. i never want him to die. i hope i die first.
we were driving in the car listening to aphex twins and he was like "this is perfect movie music" and i was like "yea it is its the music to your movie." hes like "my movie?" im like "the movie." and he says and "the perfect music for us to be driving down the road and ironically hit a deer." then he started driving really, really fast. he laughed and said just kidding. thats what i love about him, i wouldnt have added on that part about "just kidding." he made me feel so happy. because he doesnt end things with a sour sarcastic note. he adds a funny comment and laughs it all away. i wish i could do that. he draws people towards him, i saw it tonite, with my own two eyes. people really like him, and it actually is him not some act he puts on, i dont get how he does it but hes just always so damn happy and it made me happy to know that someone out there is actually happy and the fact that im related blows my mind, maybe theres a small fraction of him in me, you know, the happy bouncy quality he has.
im going to miss him when he moves away. i always knew hed be there for me. and next year he might go to GA i will cry so much. i would take a bullet for him, id ask the devil or anyone to take me instead of him because i know that he is so good and this world needs him and he can do so much for it. i dont like the way im talking it makes me sad cause i feel as if im referring to my brother: the sick boy in the hospital with cancer. i never want him to die. i hope i die first.