my heart bleeds for what you never did...
i am frustrated with life right now. i want how i feel right now to go away. i cant even explain. i dont have the energy anymore.
my headlights on my car work again. and i bought new wiperblades. and i am getting new tires tomorrow. that should make me excited, right?
besides that i feel like nothing is well. life isnt horrible. i gave lisa her christmas day present. her face when she opened both presents should have been enough to make me smile for at least the rest of the night.
i feel bad that i didnt go to that concert tonight with matt and jason. i just didnt feel up to it. heavy music and lots of people didnt seem like a good remedy for the blues.
its sad that i sit and stare at my phone wishing someone would text message me or call me just to say hi. i want to talk, but i feel like by doing so i am bothering those around me. i hate these ruts that i get myself into.
alkaline trio re-released crimson with an extra cd that has demo's and acoustic versions of all the songs. im excited they did so. but im pissed that i have to buy the cd again just to get the extra disk. i dont care about the video's i can watch them on the computer.
i am really thinking about going and getting a tattoo soon. its about time i stopped talking about it and just leaped right in.
i havent felt like myself lately. since i came back to michigan, i have tried my hardest to be more of who i used to be when it comes to how i treat people. i like the idea of smiling at someone i dont know when they do something nice. or holding the door open for an old lady.
ill be a shift at the beginning of next month. im not sure how i feel about it. a buck fifty to do less work... sounds good. having to deal with jim everyday... makes me want to shoot myself. hopefully i will just close everynight, so i wont have to see him all that often.
millions of these stupid thoughts keep rambling through my head. i am sorry for this post and anyone that actually wants to read it. it is rather pointless. but i can not sleep.
goodnight.
... until now.
my headlights on my car work again. and i bought new wiperblades. and i am getting new tires tomorrow. that should make me excited, right?
besides that i feel like nothing is well. life isnt horrible. i gave lisa her christmas day present. her face when she opened both presents should have been enough to make me smile for at least the rest of the night.
i feel bad that i didnt go to that concert tonight with matt and jason. i just didnt feel up to it. heavy music and lots of people didnt seem like a good remedy for the blues.
its sad that i sit and stare at my phone wishing someone would text message me or call me just to say hi. i want to talk, but i feel like by doing so i am bothering those around me. i hate these ruts that i get myself into.
alkaline trio re-released crimson with an extra cd that has demo's and acoustic versions of all the songs. im excited they did so. but im pissed that i have to buy the cd again just to get the extra disk. i dont care about the video's i can watch them on the computer.
i am really thinking about going and getting a tattoo soon. its about time i stopped talking about it and just leaped right in.
i havent felt like myself lately. since i came back to michigan, i have tried my hardest to be more of who i used to be when it comes to how i treat people. i like the idea of smiling at someone i dont know when they do something nice. or holding the door open for an old lady.
ill be a shift at the beginning of next month. im not sure how i feel about it. a buck fifty to do less work... sounds good. having to deal with jim everyday... makes me want to shoot myself. hopefully i will just close everynight, so i wont have to see him all that often.
millions of these stupid thoughts keep rambling through my head. i am sorry for this post and anyone that actually wants to read it. it is rather pointless. but i can not sleep.
goodnight.
... until now.