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[deathbysweets]

When you confess your heart to the one you love, even if they forgive you, is it wrong to still feel the guilt of what you've done?

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[deathbysweets]

You always say things like that, Tatsumi.

If I did that....in this case....I think it would end up getting worse.

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[deathbysweets]

I told Hisoka what I've been doing, but...I didn't tell him something I probably should have. I mean...I can't do it. I'm so afraid of losing him...terrified. He's my last hope, Tatsumi. I can't lose him. I love him too much.

Re: [Private]

[deathbysweets]

I don't. I know he's known, but...he hasn't known everything...

I hate myself for what I did....because I was made to enjoy it...he wouldn't let me hate it.....I was made to think of him while it was happening....somehow, even if I thought of Hisoka...the pain...

Tatsumi....

Re: [Private]

[deathbysweets]

I thought I was protecting him. I believed him. I've done so much wrong. I can't possibly....

....I don't want him to leave, Tatsumi...

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[deathbysweets]

It's been so long since I've felt absolutely free...every time I do, he pulls me back in with something...this deal...it helped no one...he promised me he'd leave Hisoka alone and I believed him.

...no...

Re: [Private]

[deathbysweets]

I should've thought it through...but I was so frantic and desperate....and he kept his word for so long.

...so was everyone else.....even you....even you, Tatsumi....how is that an empath is the only one that can handle me...? Am I worth what I put him through?

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[deathbysweets]

Yes, he did.

I suppose. I'm happy, when it comes down to it.