my first ever cryptic post, i guess

[deathbyrootbeer]

so. we've nearly come to the end here. it's too weird. i hope that i am a better person because of my freshman year here at wcu. i'm not really in a very happy mood now for some reason. things are pissing me off/making me sad around here. gah. i'm so effing ready for summer. i feel like half the time here that i'm in high school, but not my high school. like stuff that you see in movies and shit about high school. i hate shit like that. and it takes up so much fucking time here. god. i think there are things that could have been different (better) here at school, but overall I had a kick ass year. i met good people. my biggest fear=not being liked. really, it is. i always have to have validation from people. am i funny? am i a good guy? am i really a friend of yours, or are you just being nice keeping me around? i don't think people lie to me about these things, but i always have this little fear in the back of my head. i can't fucking wait for summer, did i say that already? o man. now those kids, they are my friends. since like forever. its so awesome. gahhh.

ok. in other news, i'm finally making real progress on my Nicole Kidman paper. i have three finals this week, that i don't want to study for. the last three nights have been spent at lora's drinking, and they were all a lot of fun.