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sittin here, its friday night, and i am all alone. my rents took my bros down to the shore for the night and i had the entire house to myself, and what did i do u ask...absolutely nothin. i went to work and came home, got showered went out to eat wit kane, ruiz, pat, and pags only to come back and chill wit pat for a half an hour then play halo till now. tomorrow we will be going to the dont look down show and then over to linds' to chill wit her, brit, and mike. should be fun. nothin really has been up since the last time that i wrote. just well school and work, yesterday, the 25th was me and lind's 10 months, awesome i must say. really happy, now something freaky.
i had a really weird dream on the 24th. the 24th was my grandmoms bday who just passed away on the 30th of december. i had a dream that my fam was havin a party over my old houses' street. i had to go up the stairs for something, so iwalked over to the steps where my aunt patrice, an empty seat, and them my grandpop were, then i looked again and my grandmom was there just givin me this awful look, i was kinda freaked out, being that she is dead and what not, and when i looked again she was gone, so i went upstairs did my thing, came down and there was a person in the seat, but it was a dark/greenish skin, very little hair, sunken in cheeks and no eyes, just starin at me, kind of a corpish figure, and that scared taht crap outta me.
im thinkin that i didnt really cope with her loss the way i was supposed to, i repressed a lot of it. and when i went to call my grandpop that day to tell him about me getting him chik-fil-a for lunch, the old voicemail thing came up and it was my grandmom, and jsut hearin her voice gave me chills and yet almost brought tears to my eyes at the sametime. iuno. confused. scared. everything all at the same time. i fuckin hate puberty. it should just be your dick grows, u get hair, and taller, then thats it but know ur brains gotta go get all funky, screw it , its four thirty and ima go wit ruiz to go get some gas station nachos, get me mind off this shit
happy bday gmom i love you!
i had a really weird dream on the 24th. the 24th was my grandmoms bday who just passed away on the 30th of december. i had a dream that my fam was havin a party over my old houses' street. i had to go up the stairs for something, so iwalked over to the steps where my aunt patrice, an empty seat, and them my grandpop were, then i looked again and my grandmom was there just givin me this awful look, i was kinda freaked out, being that she is dead and what not, and when i looked again she was gone, so i went upstairs did my thing, came down and there was a person in the seat, but it was a dark/greenish skin, very little hair, sunken in cheeks and no eyes, just starin at me, kind of a corpish figure, and that scared taht crap outta me.
im thinkin that i didnt really cope with her loss the way i was supposed to, i repressed a lot of it. and when i went to call my grandpop that day to tell him about me getting him chik-fil-a for lunch, the old voicemail thing came up and it was my grandmom, and jsut hearin her voice gave me chills and yet almost brought tears to my eyes at the sametime. iuno. confused. scared. everything all at the same time. i fuckin hate puberty. it should just be your dick grows, u get hair, and taller, then thats it but know ur brains gotta go get all funky, screw it , its four thirty and ima go wit ruiz to go get some gas station nachos, get me mind off this shit
happy bday gmom i love you!