all the world's a stage you should have gone through by now.
increasing difficulty in taking anything seriously.
further detatchment from "reality".
inability to care about things which are commonly percieved as important.
strong urges to do drugs.
so do tell me.
i've been feeling very lonely recently, but then two things occurred to me:
1)when have i really felt as though i'm not alone?
2)so fucking what?
i hope i don't get all pathetic and needy and annoying and whiney and embarrasing.
it's like i prepared myself to open doors i'd always previously denied myself of and in doing so became very dependant on what was to come. then the link was severed and the doors shot into the distance but i'm still left with the lingering need to open them.
sincefuckingwhen did i need anyone? why is this happening? it's not hormones; i've learned to silence them and patronise them in order to stay "stable" and need free, but all of a sudden i just. need. something. anything.
in a way this could be a learning experience. "never expect anything - you will only expect things. expecting things is bad. a pessimist is never dissapointed"
aside from these viral worms of want and
further detatchment from "reality".
inability to care about things which are commonly percieved as important.
strong urges to do drugs.
so do tell me.
i've been feeling very lonely recently, but then two things occurred to me:
1)when have i really felt as though i'm not alone?
2)so fucking what?
i hope i don't get all pathetic and needy and annoying and whiney and embarrasing.
it's like i prepared myself to open doors i'd always previously denied myself of and in doing so became very dependant on what was to come. then the link was severed and the doors shot into the distance but i'm still left with the lingering need to open them.
sincefuckingwhen did i need anyone? why is this happening? it's not hormones; i've learned to silence them and patronise them in order to stay "stable" and need free, but all of a sudden i just. need. something. anything.
in a way this could be a learning experience. "never expect anything - you will only expect things. expecting things is bad. a pessimist is never dissapointed"
aside from these viral worms of want and