How much to share? O, too much, of course. Why else is there LJ?
I don't understand why I've gotten so invested in something so minute.
I seem to be losing control of my emotional output, which is satisfying but bound to lead to some bad situations soon.
When I finally got what I wanted, it was as nice as I had imagined. But I didn't think it through. And it came from the wrong direction. And it hurts. More than it should. I'm embarrassed by it.
Now I don't know what to want next. I'm not sure about much right now.
I do know I want more. I want to adjust to this new perspective. I want to talk with a certain someone. I want to vent, I wish I had the right person, but it's not you. I guess it'll all come out at some inopportune moment when I let my guard down.
I'm losing control of so many things. It's all in my head: I just need to tell myself to stop.
Stop.
I seem to be losing control of my emotional output, which is satisfying but bound to lead to some bad situations soon.
When I finally got what I wanted, it was as nice as I had imagined. But I didn't think it through. And it came from the wrong direction. And it hurts. More than it should. I'm embarrassed by it.
Now I don't know what to want next. I'm not sure about much right now.
I do know I want more. I want to adjust to this new perspective. I want to talk with a certain someone. I want to vent, I wish I had the right person, but it's not you. I guess it'll all come out at some inopportune moment when I let my guard down.
I'm losing control of so many things. It's all in my head: I just need to tell myself to stop.
Stop.